[lunakate]

I found myself trying to explain to my sister and a good friend the other day that I feel like there are four of me.

Baseline Me: She is high functioning and is the woman who goes to work, rocks it and is all around awesome individual.

Depressed Me: This chick is so sad, she cant get out of bed in the morning, she doesn't shower, and she will wear the same clothing two, three days in a row because clothes are a lot of work. She cries for no reason and will eat all the things in order to feed her emotions.

Manic Euphoria Me: This chick does all the drawing, painting, writing and singing. She is full of energy, spunky and spontaneous. She is brilliant, nothing can get her down and she wants nothing to do with your dull colorless advice. If she wants to sell everything and backpack through Europe for six months with no solid plan or any money well gee golly she is going to do it (thank the gods I came out of the episode before any plane tickets were bought). This chick also has a bad habit it speaking before she thinks and tends to make slightly racist and sexually inappropriate jokes at social gatherings when she drinks.

Manic Hulk Smash Me: This chick is scary. She is always angry, seething just under the surface like Pele she is always ready to erupt and will not discriminate against anyone. She has those around her walking on egg shells, and will get verbally abusive if you eat the rest of her bread without telling her. She curses like a sailor, hates being cut off in traffic and can be a little vindictive at times. Honestly, all the others me's are kind of scared of her.

Anybody relate?

K

[boogiesmash]

The BOOGIESMASH me will hate every single driver that does not get out of my way, holds me up, or does something to annoy me. I will curse and berate them. Irritable and short
The manic me just keeps going too fast and borderlined adhd, I can't stay still can be productive but sometimes can't focus or remember what I was going to do do a minute ago when I planned it.
The depressed me is now im sad lonely can't sleep and can't get out of bed. I have had this often in past two months.
Balanced me I can function make jokes but have anxiety and worry what others think of me.

[Crazy Hitch]

Hi lunakata

Thanks for that,

I'd add one more in for me

Mixed Me: Bundles of Depression with so much energy you think of doing self destructive things

[scatterbrained04]

That's all pretty spot on everyone. Except I really striggle with knowing what my baseline personality is and what is bipolar.