My OD doesn't help the situation

Well my Involuntary commitment got flagged for review. Which means my T and his supervisors supervisor board review my case all 200+ pages. Since I got flagged my husband and son cases got flagged. Well tonight I almost got Involuntary commitment again
My T has to make a case of why my current treatment plan and he is the best option for me and my family. When I go and do that. They're trying to get us to see the same therapist Way to trigger my paranoia. So now I'm wondering "should I have been Involuntary committed?", "Will I see T again?", "Will he have disciplinary actions for letting me go home?".... WTF why do I have to be so messed up? How do I make this right?

What is Baker Act?

Involuntary commitment or sectioned

If I keep making poor decisions, I look around and try to find someone who does a better job and ask how they would handle it, then I take a chance and follow that advice because when I'm on a bad roll I know it will end badly. It might not work with the other option, but it won't be any worse.

You sound like you're in it really deep, so it's hard to know an easy way through. Do you trust your therapist or anyone else enough to guide you out of this?

Sometimes I get the feeling that you want or need to go to hospital but that you need someone else to be the one to tell you to do it or to put you in.

Not trying to offend by saying that because I was like that for ages myself but if you OD yesterday then you probably should be in there anyway

I do trust t but I'm allergic to the word involuntary. Currently I'm not bad off (on my scale ) so that's why I'm not ip. I'm apparently just really disconnected from my feelings and actions right now. I'm petrified of the hospital. I depend on here to tell me when I'm really losing it. If I used the hospital for every time I did something impulsively stupid I'd live there. One thing I did notice it that I no longer have an AP prn for when I'm like this.