[jacky8807]

So going through depressive phase ..a pretty painful one. Went back to seroquel extended release as it helped in the past. Now its strange....
Im tired depressed at nigjt but waking up at 3am with energy. Im isolating and moody but my sex drive is through the roof .i feel low low then next day much better. Intrusive thoughts of aelf harm and this overwhelming urge to make big life decisions like quit my job ect. Not just desires but like hold myself back from doing it
Its not a mixed....i been there and that is pure hell
Idk what is this
Maybe my med just kicking in?
Maybe winter into spring when i start to go a little nuts
Any ideas?

[boydisappearing]

It sounds mixed to me.. maybe a different sort of mixed? My mixed episodes aren't always the same.

[jacky8807]

I just dont know. Im only on guard about it because if im heading in some direction i wanna be prepared and act before i have to react
Your right though that all episodes are different
Thx for taking the time to reply

[pepperlynne]

Originally Posted by jacky8807

So going through depressive phase ..a pretty painful one. Went back to seroquel extended release as it helped in the past. Now its strange....
Im tired depressed at nigjt but waking up at 3am with energy. Im isolating and moody but my sex drive is through the roof .i feel low low then next day much better. Intrusive thoughts of aelf harm and this overwhelming urge to make big life decisions like quit my job ect. Not just desires but like hold myself back from doing it
Its not a mixed....i been there and that is pure hell
Idk what is this
Maybe my med just kicking in?
Maybe winter into spring when i start to go a little nuts
Any ideas?

I have gone through these strange opposing feelings. To me it feels very similiar, but like i want to run a marathon, flee the state yet I cannot move, & Im very depressed with suicidal thoughts... I told my pdoc, & he said it is the symptom of being 'mixed.' Antidepressants didn't work- I needed anti seizure meds to balance myself. It finally worked for me... Hope you find the answers soon.. Hang in there..

[jacky8807]

So maybe it is a sort of mixed state.....but the ones i have gone through before were much worse. Hope it passes soon damn
Thx for the input!!

[wiretwister]

hang in there jacky.........

[jacky8807]

Originally Posted by wiretwister

hang in there jacky.........

Thanks

[~Christina]

This time of year is prime "mixed episode time" A lot has to due with by now people are sick to death of winter and it spikes there mood and starts kinda domino effect..

I will say My Mixed episodes are total hell on earth , but there is always something different each time, They all start off presenting a bit different.

If there is a new med in the mix or getting off on one , etc .. any changes like that have the chemistry in your brain going a bit bonkers.

If this increases any further , Please contact your Pdoc before the weekend for sure, Seems all hell breaks loose for all of us on the weekends

I hope things smooth out quickly for you

I can identify jacky8807.
Here are my thoughts for what they are worth:

It does not matter to me what I call my state of emotions or mind.
What matters is dealing with it.
I deal with it by focusing on tasks and goals.
I always have short term and long term goals.
My goals are important to me.
Each goal consists of various actions or tasks.

I also do reality checks.
I analyze and identify my emotions and thoughts and assess if they are appropriate to what is going on now.
If I am re-feeling things from the past or imagining feelings in the future than it is no wonder that I feel bad.

Learning how to be in the "Here & Now" is helpful.
Having faith and hope is essential.

I wish you the best

[Crazy Hitch]

(((jacky)))

This sounds like pure hell you're right.

I'm not sure what it is really if you say you're not mixed because you've been mixed before.

What you've written in terms of symptoms is pretty much the equivelant of my mixed episodes.They suck.

Hang in there and wait and see what the meds do.

Thinking of you.

[jacky8807]

Thank you all for your insight it really really helps
I guess the best bet is to watch for worsening symptoms and hold on from there!

[lunaticfringe]

What you're going through sounds very similar to what I've been experiencing the past few weeks, and I do believe it to be a mixed episode or agitated depression.

Physically and mentally I am depressed but I am not sad. My self esteem is low and I rarely leave the house. This is partly because I am suffering from intrusive thoughts and obsessions that lead me to want to act on impulsive behaviors. Also experiencing some heightened sexual drive but NOT in a good way. I have already gone through with some minor but still embarrassing impulses and want to do whatever I can to stop more of this from happening. I feel like I am losing the battle much of the time. Feel like I am drowning! Going in next week for am emergency med appointment cause this should not be happening. Hoping the doc will increase my lithium dose and not change everything around completely cause I am tired of dealing with various side effects!

It does sound similar to a mixed episode, perhaps this time round not quite as severe? Mine generally have me running to the pdoc within 4 days to drug me out of it cos I cant stand it when it is bad.

There would be people who'd argue that I am in another mixed episode now but I see it more as an agitated depression. Intrusive thoughts, Sui Idealation, SH behaviour, tears, high anxiety, decent amount of energy (considering the meds I am on!), running on very little sleep, no appetite, great concentration, high agitation, high restlessness, racing thoughts etc. Actually writing it makes me think maybe I am mixed but it is definitely not nearly as bad as previous mixed episodes.

So maybe it is a possibility that you're not too bad on the mixed spectrum as am I?

[jacky8807]

Exactley ..my mixed are hell even landing me in the hospitals sometimes
I think this is just a confused depression lol
The good thing is the seroquel xr works fast for me so its lifting
Ameen
Ameeeen
AMEN

[Crazy Hitch]

I am glad to hear that the seroquel is working for you and that this phase is lifting.

[jacky8807]

Thx