[KagedBird]

From one day to the next I don't if I want to be in a relationship or not. I have already ruined a 22 year marriage and now I'm ruining a 5 year relationship. My moods are swinging so rapidly I'm not sure from one moment to the next if I should call and tell him I want to see other people because he isn't making enough effort to be with me & I'm lonely. The next, I'm looking at weddings on pinterest & planning ours. Then, I don't want to be around anybody and turn my phone off, hoping no one will show up at my door. Then, I'm back to wondering why isn't he doing more to spend time with me. The sad part is: I can go through these multitude of emotions within a day, a few days, or if I'm lucky every few weeks.

I think I love him...because, I don't even know if I know what is.

I can't sleep...Have no appetite...

[gayleggg]

I'm sorry your emotions seem to be running a muck. If I were you I wouldn't make any major decisions while in this state. I'm sure you are capable of love, but seem to be motivated by your mood swings. Have you spoken to a doctor or therapist? If not, that would be a good place to start.

[bella4]

Hi KagedBird
Just wanted you to know that you’re not alone; I wonder sometimes if I will ever be able to truly love again. Im not sure if it’s the meds, the Bipolar or just me. I still think of “him” and I want to love him; but at the same time I still without a better word , fell “numb”