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I let my lithium levels get low and it spun me into mania. Never saw it coming. Now it is like I have lost a week of my life, and spring break is over, and I have three tests next week, and my brain is not working, and it goes on and on till I can't get out of bed which puts me father behind. I'll be a senior next fall and just keep trying to hang in there reminding myself things will get better but in reality they don't. It is just an illusion of normalcy maybe a week maybe a month but it always comes back. I am just so tired of this illness it has taken everything from me time and time again and then it laughs at me when it is all over. Anyone else struggling to get through a day only to get up the next day and do it all over again. I feel the worst trick bipolar plays on me is convincing me it does not exist till my life is unmanageible. Sorry just had to vent

Everyday is a struggle because you never know what the next day holds. All you can do is keep one foot in the front of the other with your sword out, kicking butt along the way. Its hard and its sucks, and it makes life 10x more difficult that it should be. Ive been fighting for 9 years and it doesnt get easier, but in the end you feel stronger for it.