[bumble2u]

A list of stuff that is happening:
I cant stand being around people. why do people talk all the time it hurts my head mixed with the other comments that i hear its just a cacophony.
the urge to hurt myself is strong. the command to do so very strong
I cancelled my appointments with my care team
Things taking on a different light. I understand crows, I know something is going to happen I feel like I have to protect my family. I didn't manage to do the soap ritual that they asked me to now something bad will happen. Soap runs out 9th April . I could buy more soap but I think I am done then. If it saves them. Nothing here is going right but maybe that is so i can just not work here any more.
Not getting more than three hours sleep.
I had so many plans to plant garden build chicken coop, paint living room, build sofa. I only got the kitchen painted. Cannot think linear any more.
I am hoping somebody knows what this is like. I cant explain it to anyone, even worried that this is being watched. thinking i should delete my facebook.

I understand much of what you are saying. When I am in a bad way, I find people very difficult also.

Do you think it might be a good idea to talk to your doctors about what is going on? It sounds like you aren't in a good place, and that is the perfect time to see your doctors. Will you share with us why you cancelled your appointment. Do you think it might be helpful to talk to the doctors about what's going on?