[stressedmama]

So I've been seeing my T for a little over 2 months now. I've been getting my meds through my PCP, but since my symptoms have been increasing in severity and frequency, and were causing major disfunction in my life and ruining my relationship, I decided to start seeing a P-doc again. I hadn't seen anyone since I moved here 4 years ago. So because of my crap insurance I had to start by seeing this therapist (whom I DO like), I told him what I was needing the 1st visit. A med adjustment etc. 2 wks ago I left him a voicemail telling him I really needed to get in w/ the P-doc, that I had my PCP change the meds again for me, but she really wants my Bipolar followed by the psychiatrist. Today he told me that he had put in the referral 2 months ago, and at that time the P said he didn't see anything that I was taking that was treating the bipolar (I had been taking Topamx - IDIOT!), so after my voicemail, my T sent the P another message saying my PCP had added Seroquel to the mix, and the jack@$$ P-doc sent him a message back telling him that "maybe my PCP just needed a consult in how to tweek my meds to treat the bipolar". WTF!?!?! My PCP is a PA in FAMILY PRACTICE!!! NOT PSYCHIATRY!!! It's not her JOB to "get a consult" in how to "tweek my meds to treat my bipolar". She is there to treat me if I get sick, or hurt or whatever. It's HIS DAMN job to treat my @#$&@^$% BIPOLAR!!!!! I couldn't believe he had the audacity to say that!!!!! Who the HELL does he think he is!?!?!?! So needless to say, he's fired before I even get to see him, and I'm back on the painstaking search to find a P-doc that will take me on as a new patient w/ **** insurance.

Geez that sounds like a wild roller coaster. You would think that these docs would know that adding stress is just going to cause the bipolar to play weird games. I really hope you get things straightened out soon. ((hugs))

[gayleggg]

That sounds so frustrating. I'm glad you are already looking for a new one because that one doesn't sound like he would be a very good pdoc. Sounds like he has too much business to care about one more. Good riddance.

[stressedmama]

So after calling every P-doc listed on stupid Medicaid's list that THEY say are accepting stupid Medicaid....not a single P-doc in town ACCEPT the asshole I'm "dealing" with is accepting Medicaid. UGH!! I HATE being on Medicaid. And the only reason I AM on Medicaid is because I had to drop down to part time in order to MAKE all these stupid appointments in the first place! GGGRRRRRR!!!!!!

[Nammu]

The ones that say they accept medicaid only take a couple people the rest are non medicare/medicaid HMOs This is why we so desperately need a one payer system. I had to go to the community clinic to get a Pdoc and only got help after I was in crisis and hospitalized. It's so frustrating that they don't put more emphasis on prevention. We know when we need the help, we know what meds are working and which don't, not the insurance companies.

[stressedmama]

Originally Posted by sidestepper

The ones that say they accept medicaid only take a couple people the rest are non medicare/medicaid HMOs This is why we so desperately need a one payer system. I had to go to the community clinic to get a Pdoc and only got help after I was in crisis and hospitalized. It's so frustrating that they don't put more emphasis on prevention. We know when we need the help, we know what meds are working and which don't, not the insurance companies.

I'm so disgusted by our medical system anymore. I work in scheduling for one of the biggest private practice medical companies in our city, and aren't accepting Medicaid, medicare, or Tricare. It's absolutely repulsive!

Last night I was at such a low, my fiancé asked me if I wanted to check myself in because I was borderline hysterical. I've never been hospitalized before, but it's only been over the last 6 months to a year that my symptoms have severely intensified. I don't know that I ever could voluntarily go I.P. I have a 15yr old daughter, I couldn't deal with what she would think - I don't think she even fully comprehends me having bipolar anyway, let alone going I.P.

I'm just incredibly aggravated, so fed up with not being able to find the help I need. I'm off one of my meds now that my PCP gave me because we assumed I would have gotten in with the P-doc by now to re-evaluate the medication. Thank God I'm seeing her (PCP) again on Tues to try and figure something else out meds wise until the jackass P-doc pulls his head out of his ***. I was just bawling last night wishing I could just "go away". Asking why? What the hell did I do to deserve this? I'm so freaking tired. Tired of being tired. Tired of sleeping 21 hours of the day for "x" amount of days, then all of a sudden only sleeping 2-3 hrs a night. Tired of fighting the system, tired of fighting myself. Not knowing from one minute to the next if I'm going to be happy, pissed off, or severely depressed and just want to lay down and cry. Its exhausting. So much of the time I wish I'd not been born. So much of the time I wish I could just go to sleep and not wake up. I just want it all to go the hell away.

[RisuNeko]

Keep us posted on how it goes with your PCP. This definitely needs to get straightened out. You can't go suffering like this. I'm sorry your insurance is so awful.