[Capriciousness]

I have been trying soooo hard but am having a tad bit of cycling. Think I was kinda up for a little. Spent a **** ton of money but returned most of it. Though I did need some new clothes so it worked out. Ha! Then I exhausted out and felt down and overwhelmed for awhile and then I felt really happy and good (baseline?)

Then my husband's work picked up and he has been late and worked all wkd leaving me wth the kids ALL the time. Then my freaking dishwasher broke yesterday morning and yesterday was soooo stressful and today I am just sunk. I don't even know that the day was harder than any others. I just was over my edge. Now I'm drinking wine in my car (in the driveway. NOT driving)and I wish I would stop because I try really hard not to drink ever to protect my silly messed up freakshow of a brain. I'm ashamed. I wish I was more ashamed.

Stupid dishwasher

[kaliope]

i think it is more stupid bipolar.......lol..........you sound very overwhelmed. i hope things balance out for you soon.