Cameras

I meant to follow daily and stay busy

I like the way you said it originally

wicked hood yo, i can dig

You know i'm just playing i love being in a fun mood weee

I was stalked so I have some paranoia about being watched. Not by cameras, though. I do notice that that fear seems worse at times I don't feel well.

When I asked my cousin if she had hidden cameras in her house she made it sound like I'm nuts. And she said she needs to be ok while she's gone. I said I'm fine cause I am.

Back to my collage

When I go do an interior design job in someone's house, it feels like there's cameras on me everywhere, especially when I have the front door key and nobodies home. Probably are!

I'm always paranoid about being watched by both people and cameras. They're everywher now, it's not far fetched to think someone's watching. I've even manipulated my actions at times thinking there may be a camera on me.

What kind of materials do you use in your collages? Do you have to use scissors a lot?

Well I didn't have my collage stuff so I had to go but it all (magazines, scissors, glue stick, parchment paper). I'm away from home right now pet sitting. And I got coloring books, crayons and a word search to pass my time. Just made another collage! Not too long till gAme time! (Uk basketball!)

To be honest, no.

If I had that job..,I'd pretend that I was on a tv show!!!

It's a well-known CIA trick to inflate your cheeks and scowl to avoid recognition while being photographed, as exemplified by the third "tramp" from the left being escorted from the Dallas book depository, 11.22.1963:



Similar "distortion grimaces" can be used to throw the less sophisticated facial recognition algorithms, according to a relative who does pattern recognition for Raytheon and is neither mentally ill nor a psychiatrist.

My mind must be totally messed up cause I can't understand that

No, it's not! I like to read thriller novels and I've seen info. about that in those books. There is computer software that can be used to look at photos and compare images of people to images that it has stored. It looks at things like cheekbone structure and distance between the eyes because those are fixed.

The older software was less capable and people could "fool" it by frowning or puffing up their cheeks so that they would look different.

You just asked about cameras, anyway, not about cameras with facial recognition capability, so maybe that's why it didn't make sense.

I'm just super sleepy. I'm crashing. Sad day. I'm mourning the end of my high. It was so amazing...but it's the highest I've ever been. I did ALOT of weird things I've never done before. And I spent a lot of money. And had lots of weird thinking. I don't remember much of this week. Now I'm just tired and irritable. I shall nap and practice coping skills all day today (once this family dinner is over.)

Thanks yal for being so nice and nsweing my post.

I saw Dr today and T was concerned and left him a note or something. Anyway, he adjusted my meds and I see him again next week for a logn eval,uation. hes hoping it helps with my impulsivity.

That sounds good. I hope the meds change helps. So...how're the chickens doing? Is there a rooster?

Off to a therapy appt. this afternoon. I'm currently transitioning between therapists and I'm having some overlap. This is the nice-but-sorta-clueless therapist this afternoon.

Just hens

I'm glad you got to see the T and Pdoc. Isn't life with bipolar fun! :0

Heres to hoping I don't get "the crash!" Im pretty high today lol