[bumble2u]

I am happy for you,
That you can open the page and say how you feel,
Happy.... happy for you, that others answer with concern.
What a gift to impart, the very last and cathartic words within your soul.
For I am in dark , only watching cold like stone.

(((((((bumble2u)))))))

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That's a beautiful verse. I hope it doesn't reflect too closely what you're going through. We're here reading.

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[Innerzone]

This: includes you too! What's happening, bumble2u?

[bumble2u]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

This: includes you too! What's happening, bumble2u?

There are torrential thoughts
Like foods, destruction.
They are all within me as I keep quiet I try hard to be quiet.
In efforts to be silent. I stopped seeing anyone. I worry that they will become infected. I should be quarantined and as the thoughts rage,I am silent.
I feel like I am slipping away and it's ok. I turned off the shallow Facebook. I know there is no way anyone will notice my absence.
This is ok .
I really have zero to offer the world yet sometimes, even when you have nothing to offer you secretly hope you matter.
Even in situations where you know you do matter, the voices tell you this is a lie. I don't know who to believe, my world seems the wrong way up without any hope of polarities ever changing.
I am wondering whether I can change the pre written path.
i appreciate the hugs and thoughts from all who kindly took the time to answer. Thinking of hugs kind of makes me feel sore and stinging I'm not sure why. But, everything hurts presently both physical and emotional.
Thank you

[Innerzone]

Then sending comfort and concern in modes that are not hugs. Whatever form you best receive that in, let that be what it is. The important thing is that it works for you.

There is one thing I can tell you, and that is that you DO matter! This is something that I struggle with a lot lately too, and have the same reaction -- that it is a lie(!) But in less mind-turbulent times, realize that the mattering is what's real, and that the other is a manifestation of how we're feeling about ourselves, and assuming that others must too. But they don't. They have their own minds, you will not infect them. I realize that might be hard to believe right now.

Do you have a Pdoc and/ or T? Are you taking your meds? Perhaps they need an adjustment. It'd be a really good idea to give them a call -- they need to know what is going on so they can help you. It's definitely worth breaking the silence for. You CAN feel better, it's just going to take some help right now to make that happen. We all need a bit of help sometimes. It's ok. Being all topsy-turvy with torrents of thoughts is no fun! Truly, you cannot infect them. They can help you sort things out. Let them help, ok? Please?

[bumble2u]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Then sending comfort and concern in modes that are not hugs. Whatever form you best receive that in, let that be what it is. The important thing is that it works for you.

There is one thing I can tell you, and that is that you DO matter! This is something that I struggle with a lot lately too, and have the same reaction -- that it is a lie(!) But in less mind-turbulent times, realize that the mattering is what's real, and that the other is a manifestation of how we're feeling about ourselves, and assuming that others must too. But they don't. They have their own minds, you will not infect them. I realize that might be hard to believe right now.

Do you have a Pdoc and/ or T? Are you taking your meds? Perhaps they need an adjustment. It'd be a really good idea to give them a call -- they need to know what is going on so they can help you. It's definitely worth breaking the silence
for. You CAN feel better, it's just going to take some help right now to make that happen. We all need a bit of help sometimes. It's ok. Being all topsy-turvy with torrents of thoughts is no fun! Truly, you cannot infect them. They can help you sort things out. Let them help, ok? Please?

Dear inner-zone,
I wish you weren't struggling. I wish none of us were.
I'm not sure how I should proceed. I am under a care team who would usually see me once a week. But I went away for work and what with holidays I have not seen anyone for many weeks now. The last time I saw someone I played pretend and said all was fine.
I seem to trust less and less. I never know who is going to turn up and find the lack of continuity disturbing. I just tried to write you something but my wifi decided not to be and I lost what I wrote. Seems technology wants me to shut up too.
I see my family doc for blood test results on Monday. I am thinking of cancelling since he's going to mention my weight if I go. But I know that his wife was schizophrenic and he is not bad as doctors go. But still don't know if I can trust them. When you do you usually end up getting sectioned. I don't even know what they do with the coding for this site.
I wish there was a safe place to be. I don't know where to go ,they are always watching me when I sleep if I sleep I watch them watching me it's really quite ridiculous.

[Innerzone]

Don't cancel Monday's appointment, ok bumble2u? He sounds like a good doctor and you know each other already. I'm guessing you may have run out of meds on account of the longer than usual stretch of time since you last saw your care team? Have you? If so, perhaps your family doctor could prescribe. Ideally, to get you through the interim to an appt. with your care team. The meds will help get you on the mend -- it's awful to be going through this and feeling the way you do, right? I'm sure you want to be feeling better. And I'd sure like to see you feeling better too.

You know, I think it's great that you have that appointment on Monday. Know why? Because so often the hardest thing is making a call. But that is already taken care of, so that's one thing already out of your way.

[Innerzone]

How are you doing today, bumble2u?

[Innerzone]

Been thinking of you, and hoping you are doing ok. Check in if you can, ok?