[dshantel]

Today I'm just feeling so down.I don't know what to do with my life anymore. I can't seem to find anything that I'm interested in going to school for. I mean I was going to school here but I had a really bad depression episode last year and ended up dropping all of my classes so I have ruined all my chances of ever going back to school there and it's the only college here. My husband goes there as well so it's not like I can go somewhere else. I just feel stuck and have no idea what to do with my life.

[cashart10]

I feel the same way often. I am sorry about college, that is hard for anyone without mental illness. But, if you weren't well, there is NOTHING you could have done to change what happened. You were sick. Try to focus on your future. No matter how sad, no matter how depressed, you will have bright moments and your life is worth it. I wish you the best!

[dshantel]

That's the thing my future depends on what I do now and I have no idea what to do.

[Ruftin]

(((dshantel))) I notice you're un medicated. I'm bipolar and could not put one foot in front of the other without my medications. Why aren't you treating your depression? In this day and age it seems cruel for someone like you to suffer as you are when there is treatment for depression. I wish you could feel better without meds but right now it does not seem so and it's affecting your life in a huge way. I hope this doesn't sound too judgy. I just want you to feel better like I do.

[dshantel]

Originally Posted by Ruftin

(((dshantel))) I notice you're un medicated. I'm bipolar and could not put one foot in front of the other without my medications. Why aren't you treating your depression? In this day and age it seems cruel for someone like you to suffer as you are when there is treatment for depression. I wish you could feel better without meds but right now it does not seem so and it's affecting your life in a huge way. I hope this doesn't sound too judgy. I just want you to feel better like I do.

No, not judgy at all. I have appointment with pdoc in 2 week. I do want to feel better.

[Crazy Hitch]

I'm just wondering if you've ever had a career assessment done before?

I haven't quite picked up in your post what your ambition was in terms of going to classes?

I mean truth be told (apart from the friend and they partying hehe) I didn't really like the "lectures" too much at uni ... but that wasn't what really motivated me to stay ...

it was that my eye was on the prize of the end goal - which was to get a degree to enter teaching.

So I'm just wondering -

What is your passion?

What is it that you wish to achieve over all?

Have you ever done a thorough assessment (only if you really have no clue)

[Footnote - I mean maybe you will find your future calling doesn't involve college; and maybe it will - seek; and see if you can find?]

[dshantel]

Originally Posted by Hooligan

I'm just wondering if you've ever had a career assessment done before?

I haven't quite picked up in your post what your ambition was in terms of going to classes?

I mean truth be told (apart from the friend and they partying hehe) I didn't really like the "lectures" too much at uni ... but that wasn't what really motivated me to stay ...

it was that my eye was on the prize of the end goal - which was to get a degree to enter teaching.

So I'm just wondering -

What is your passion?

What is it that you wish to achieve over all?

Have you ever done a thorough assessment (only if you really have no clue)

[Footnote - I mean maybe you will find your future calling doesn't involve college; and maybe it will - seek; and see if you can find?]

I don't really know what I want overall, I just want to do something to live comfortably and be happy. I like helping people and my major was psychology but that's a joke right? How am I to help others with mental issues and I can't even help myself. I'm also not very good with stress.

[Ruftin]

Originally Posted by dshantel

No, not judgy at all. I have appointment with pdoc in 2 week. I do want to feel better.

Oh!!! I'm so happy to hear this. 2 weeks and counting.....

[Ruftin]

Originally Posted by dshantel

I don't really know what I want overall, I just want to do something to live comfortably and be happy. I like helping people and my major was psychology but that's a joke right? How am I to help others with mental issues and I can't even help myself. I'm also not very good with stress.

Psychology is not a joke. You would make a very good one because you know first person what it's all about. I'm a psych nurse. Imagine that!!! I'm a darn good one because if one of my patients is suffering I'm at the doctors throat like a pit bull. I know what it's like to suffer. The other nurses are not like me nor do they have a sense of urgency I have when a patient is in crisis. Again, I know from personal experience what it's like to be in crisis.

Please don't let you mental illness dictate what you will do with your life. Sure it may slow you down a little, it took me longer to get my degree but I was determined and you can do it too. I think you'll see it from a different perspective when you've been stabilized and are feeling better.

[Crazy Hitch]

YES!!!!!!!

I SECOND RUFTIN!!!!!!!

If your passion was psychology - well HELL YEAH PERSUE YOUR PASSION!!!!!

Out of EVERYTHING you have written in these posts - this is the stand out line:

"I like helping people"

I believe THIS is your calling.

What exactly that may look like?

I don't know.

If it manifests as being a psychologist - hell yeah go go go go go after your passion.

If it lands up manifesting as a different careers where you are feeling passionate about helping people go go go go go go go go YOU PASSION NEVER LIES !

[electricbipolargirl]

It was a pdoc in the hospital that finally got my meds right. He told me that he had bipolar, too. He took one look at my meds and said, "These aren't high enough to do anything". So he raised all the dosages and I started to get my life back. I will always be indebted to that man. He saved me.

[Ruftin]

(((electricbipolargirl))) Your story just warmed me all over......I hope I do this for others as well.

[alincdytyourmeds]

you could get a job as a tech or aide somewhere, still help people but not have to have that much education. Pay might be less, but the rewards are the same.

[dshantel]

Originally Posted by alincdytyourmeds

you could get a job as a tech or aide somewhere, still help people but not have to have that much education. Pay might be less, but the rewards are the same.

I tried being a nurse aide before and at first I loved the job but then when I moved states and got a job here it became to stressful and I broke down and cried and quite. It was not good. I'm not good with very stressful things but I think when I'm having a depressive or mixed episode it makes things more stressful if that makes sense. I'm trying to avoid things I know stress me out.