Never met a bipolar with depressive

Met only one other bipolar person in college. We no longer are in contact but we are Facebook friends. Never met a bipolar with depressive symptoms. I'm not fortunate to have hypo mania and haven't had mania since my teens. The depressions can be crippling.

I knew a lot of people with bipolar disorder who were my patients but I hadn't met someone with anything close to what I have until I was hospitalized in 2011. I am always put on a mood disorders unit but it has more people with depression than bipolar so my first 2 times I was the one with bipolar and everyone else had depression. The 2nd time I had to have been the most difficult person to deal with because I was so manic and had akathesia. It was so bad that they were giving me jobs to do to keep my fingers busy and trying to use nursing supplies to help me make potholders without having to have supervision to use the real hooks. I did groups standing up, rocking around in a desk chair and pacing in and out. I know I made everyone very happy to leave.

the person I met in the hospital had such a similar bipolar to mine. We were even in the same clinical trial at the same time. It was great to meet someone and we talked a lot (it was Christmas so there was not much to do. We tried playing games but then this 3rd guy was admitted and he made games not much fun at all so we went back to just talking a lot).

I know someone online who has some similar parts of the disorder but different approach to handling it.

It's nice to know someone who understands your particular situation isn't it?

I have more of a problem with depression.

But the mania/mixed problems have led me to inpatient twice. So I think on the rare occasions I'm manic/mixed are more dangerous. Both times I was the "manic" one inpatient. Made friends with everyone. Lol! Third time I was the psychotic one.

Second inpatient I was the one crying non stop because I was so depressed and just wanted to go home.

My symptoms are almost always depressive. I've only actually been fully manic twice. Lots of mixed episodes (very agitated depression basically). All but one of my hospitalizations were for depression.

My symptoms are almost always depressive too. I haven't been up for years now and am hardly functioning. Successfully pushed everything and everyone out of my life. We're out there. Probably isolating endlessly.

My problems are either an ugly manic angry mess or suicidal depressed. Then there is my baseline.

I wish I stayed baseline longer than I usually get.