keeping the mind healthy during ...oncoming episodes

I do this too, with one exception, I suffer no ill effects.


The information doesn't even give me the creeps, nvm cause paranoia, and right now I realize I should be grateful for that.


I think its probably due to being a mixture of fascinated with a dash of hyponanic apathy.


I've been doing my best to look after me over the past 3 years as well.


And while I cannot for the life of me manage a generic 8hour sleep routine, I do make sure to pencil in 4-5 hours because I naturally need less sleep.


My job is currently alternating my bed times due to shift work, but my method seems to be helping.


PS. I'm sorry these research obsessions are accompanied by paranoia for you guys, that must suck hairy donkey balls.

I tend to get in that research mode too. Mostly history for me although history does entail some pretty dark things. The crusades, plague, tortuous ways of killing people. Once a long long time ago I was pissed at some hospital person and told them I would draw & quarter her. After finding out what that meant I received a stay away order from her. I was in the hospital at the time, I thought it was ridiculous anyone could take that seriously especially since she had to look it up to find out what I was talking about, so I know what you mean when people probably think your scary.

Anyway if I could remember what I learned in these intense times I could be a prof teaching history.

About routines they are fairly easy to keep when I'm stable but the times when things start tilting either direction all bets are off. If I can't keep a routine in a hospital what hope do I have on my own.

Want to know something funny? I'm sitting here not being morbid for once, trying to use my skills to find out the chances of damaging the reconstruction on my ankle. And there is nothing. I can find the most horrible things but not a simple answer to should an ankle with this repair be able to turn completely under.

Come on internet.

Those who compulsively research the morbid should Google 'Unit 731'; don't miss out on some of the 20th century's most disturbing atrocities.

I love how this thread is so haywire all over the place lol
hexagram I will check that out...as if I had a CHOICE hahA
Trippin....yeah it follows me. Im the type when im depressed avoid news at all costs and realize weeks later there was a huge natural disaster.
JustJ I am really thinking about IOP...if I could have a clear thought I might actually look into it
instead I may go google something ridiculous

This is a great thread.

I am saving Hexagram's suggestion for tonight.

The actual news is much worse for me than my need to understand (this is what I tell myself my morbid research is doing).

Victorian death pictures is another very weird and very interestint topic. Sometimes you can't figure out who is dead which adds to the experience.

I've never recognized in myself that going down deep rabbit holes of research could be a sign of an impending episode but I think maybe it has been.