[sheisalive]

I woke up in a weird mood. I'm still learning about my illness but I think I live with mixed states of emotions and depression. But I'm writing because I feel better today. Recently I have committed myself to working out at least 3x per week and I think it's helping me to get stable again. At the very least it can help me with the powerful depression that I've been dealing with.

I want to live a life where I can function at work and at school (neither of which I am doing at the moment). And I hope that strong self care will help me to accomplish my goals.

I am 37 years old and rebuilding my life from scratch. I was hopeless about this before but now I am viewing it as an opportunity to re-imagine my life. I don't really have anything right now. I don't have material things like a car or even my own apartment. Before my diagnosis I had all of these things.

I'm going through a divorce and I have lost everything in the process. My home is gone, my husband is gone, my car is gone. Everything is gone.

But the most important thing is that I am still here. I am stable and I am capable of rebuilding my life. I just have to do the work of rebuilding, keep my eye on the prize and believe in myself.

I am realizing that the first step to all of my goals is self care. I will not be able to work and go school without working out, practicing mindfulness, and believing in myself. Right now is the most important time to believe in myself while I have nothing. I believe it is from here that I must build my confidence and my new life.

So I just wanted to acknowledge that today I am having a good day and I'm going to embrace it and try to create more days like it.

[LettinG0]

Good for you! Very proud of you and your attitude. Enjoy!

yay for good days.

hope it continues for you

[wiretwister]

Originally Posted by sheisalive

I am realizing that the first step to all of my goals is self care. I will not be able to work and go school without working out, practicing mindfulness, and believing in myself. Right now is the most important time to believe in myself while I have nothing. I believe it is from here that I must build my confidence and my new life.

I hear a strong woman who knows what she wants and has a plan to get there..... good for you,,,