Screwed up meds

I missed my usual reminder to myself that I needed more gabapentin before starting my 2nd pill box (I do 2 at a time because I hate doing it). And I completely forgot so I went a few days without it. My mood charting actually shows it leaving my bloodlevels. I'm not on much of it and it shouldn't do that much but apparently it does have value. Good to know I guess.

But now I'm back on it but the cognitive stuff that usually goes with a more manic brain is back. I'm not finishing sentences, getting lost while I talk, substituting the wrong words, etc. Even painting my nails was a mess because I forgot the sequence and messed things up badly. I'm not feeling any real side effects from resuming it (which there shouldn't be since I'm on so little).

This makes me anxious. My pdoc is out of town but I did send an email she may or may not get. She can't do much anyway. Right now I am feeling more and more mixed again. I was hanging at a just above where mania is uncomfortable and now I'm low and/or high. Hopefully that will stop when the med levels even back out.

I hate med mistakes. I almost never make them but I seem to make big ones when I do. The last one I made was grabbing my PM meds at 9 AM and taking all of them. I had to call in and my dr was away so I had to convince someone I didn't know that it wasn't the most pathetic attempt at an overdose ever and that I really was THAT disorganized.

I really hope I haven't messed myself up for the next several weeks or months. It's possible.

I hate it when I mess up with my meds, I thought I rarely did but Ive been having troubles recently too. So Annoying! Hope you can get back on track soon hugs

I am sorry to hear that the meds have had this outcome when you've had a short break in them. That's not nice at all. Mania is not a nice thing to live with it can be exhausting and draining. Anxiety is an uncomfortable feeling so I just wanted to say hang in there and let us know how you travel.