[Plinketyplonk]

I asked a question about mixed episodes on here recently and boy am I finding out what it means. One minute I'm flying and the next minute I am contemplating silly things. All day today I've been yoyoing up and down , up and down. It's frustrating as hell. And to top it all off, I got a letter telling me my next cbt appt will be in 4 months... Brilliant, because I don't need help at all here, because I haven't waited long enough.

[HALLIEBETH87]

I'm sorry. I think most of us can relate to the misery that is mixed episodes.

Stay strong! Bipolar cycles.

[Toodles333]

"Misery" is a perfect description. I've been wanting to tear my face off one minute, then not have a care in the world the next. Unstable doesn't come close.

[HALLIEBETH87]

Yes. I usually have no clue how I will feel in 2 minutes. It's a crying, laughing, screaming a joking, staying busy and not wanting to leave bed kinda mood when I feel so confused and enlightened at once kinda mood.

[mom2trips+1]

Sorry you are having a tough time. When I am in a mixed episode, I am a mess. I want to get away from my own thoughts and emotions and can't. Miserable is a great way to put it.

Hang in there. I hope you can get relief soon.

[Toodles333]

The brain is conducting psychological warfare against itself. 90% of my brain is screaming at me to die, the other 10% is fighting the battle. It's a very cruel part of the illness.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

My pdoc told me that mixed episodes are one of the very worst things she thinks people have to live through of anything she treats. Seems right to me.

[Capriciousness]

Yes to all the above

Also I kinda feel like my "normal" is just one long mild mixed episode.

[Brophy]

I've only ever experienced on mixed episode and I have no desire to go through that again. Your brain and body jump so fast from one thing to the next. All you can do is try to keep yourself stable and ride the wave until it burns itself out.

[Plinketyplonk]

Thank you, i took some sleeping pills and managed to get to sleep. I feel ok at the moment, no depressive feelings, i'm just wired now which is ok. I feel way better than yesterday that's for sure.

[Crazy Hitch]

Hi Plinketyplonk, I'm sorry to hear that you are experiencing so much turmoil at the moment, I've had mixed episodes in the past and they're not nice. I'm pleased that you managed to get some rest and are feeling somewhat better. Yes, I would personally have the wired feeling over the depressive feeling so long as I am aware of what I am doing and don't start behaving recklessly.

Hang in there and keep us posted on how you go

[Plinketyplonk]

Originally Posted by Hooligan

Hi Plinketyplonk, I'm sorry to hear that you are experiencing so much turmoil at the moment, I've had mixed episodes in the past and they're not nice. I'm pleased that you managed to get some rest and are feeling somewhat better. Yes, I would personally have the wired feeling over the depressive feeling so long as I am aware of what I am doing and don't start behaving recklessly.

Hang in there and keep us posted on how you go

Hi Hooligan,

I've been rapidly cycling from up to down to up again. I'm feeling really low and empty at the moment. I hope it changes soon because I can never cope with the depression. Thanks for checking up on me, your message made me feel a little happier.

Sam.