[ThunderGoddess]

Hey everyone! How are you all?

As usual I went on a little hiatus I went bananas punched/kicked walls and threw around any movable object in the house. I stopped the divalproex I think it caused some severe anger I actually almost beat up my boyfriend during the past couple weeks, we have both been pretty scared.

I told my therapist I was stopping the meds but I couldn't get in contact with my psych because she is in a hospital setting and I have to go through a bunch of transfers to get to her extension which I did try once and got sent to the wrong person after 10 minutes of just being passed around so during this period I have not had the patience or strength to explain to a number of people who I need to contact, like I told my therapist I can't even order a damn pizza let alone try to navigate the phone systems at this place!

I go see the psych on Friday so I'm not to thrilled if I'm going to reprimanded so I'm very anxious about this I feel like me saying I know the pills were the thing that was making me worse is not going to be taken seriously. I guess I'm just picturing her being like you don't get to decide that!!!!

[elevatedsoul]

i hope that your doctor listens to you friday!
its horrible taking medication that you dont want in the first place and second isnt working at all

im about to take myself off zyprexa for the same reason, because i cant get it through to my pdoc that this medicine is making things worse and not helping

hang in there, im glad your appointment is friday

Aww sweety that sounds so awful. Why would anyone take something that made things worse? Throw them out of the window and tell em to try again.

I usually know in a couple of days if the meds are me.

I hope it goes well with your pdoc visit. If it's like so hard to reach yours, is it possible to get another one?

I hope you are treated well.

[ThunderGoddess]

Originally Posted by elevatedsoul

i hope that your doctor listens to you friday!
its horrible taking medication that you dont want in the first place and second isnt working at all

im about to take myself off zyprexa for the same reason, because i cant get it through to my pdoc that this medicine is making things worse and not helping

hang in there, im glad your appointment is friday

Thanks! This will be try 3 on meds I assume I'm getting lithium next which I'm not sure about I heard some bad things in the long term taking it, so I guess I can discuss that. What I felt like was extreme rapid cycling daily I had so many moods I felt straight up no turning back one way ticket to crazy town.
I'm sorry to hear that about zyprexa it is so hard !! You think it can't get worse with meds in that way but man is it real! What is zyprexa for?

[Crazy Hitch]

Hang in there until Friday ThunderGoddess - you can do it!

Yeah I had fun this week ripping up some random objects in the house that I never use nor need for no reason other than to release some pent up energy. It felt good.

I'm thinking of investing in a kick boxing punching bag in one of our spare rooms. I think it would be awesome to use it when I need it.