[czarina1984]

I have a very hard time trusting anyone and only a handful of people even know my diagnosis. I have three people who, if they ask, I will tell them the truth about how I am doing. One of them this morning sent me a pin on Pinterest about how I need to cut the drama. I barely give her the highlight reel every few weeks. Nothing about drs or med changes. The other two I only talk to like every 3 months. I feel like I have 85% of my life I can't talk about except to my therapist once a week for an hour. How am I supposed to build relationships with people without talking about my life? It becomes quickly news, weather, and what is going on in their lives. Very one sided. I'm trying to pretend to be someone I'm not. I'm struggling with why, if I am not allowed to exist as me, why do I exist at all?

[Toodles333]

I'm sorry, but that's a disgraceful thing for your friend to say. And to do it publicly. I would never speak to that person again, if I were you. That has angered me. I hope you haven't/didn't take it to heart. Some people are born stupid and remain that way.

Take care.

[wiretwister]

I have spent the last week camping around several people , one very closely ... he knows I take meds .. he knows I was flying high .. he knows I am a loon .. he knows everything but the name of my illness .. he has never asked and I have never said .. it would be nice to not be afraid of the label ... when I have told it was very liberating ...

[CopperStar]

I feel ya. Or at least I think so.

We experience our.. well experiences, but are told that they are not based in reality, that they are based in mental illness.

But then we get told that our mental illness is reality and that we need to accept it, suck it up and comply with treatment.

Then people don't want to acknowledge our reality, so we create yet another reality for other people in which we're practically just houseplants with no lives or experiences.

But then when we have "episodes" we're told that we're not in touch with reality, be it psychosis issues or that our feelings/thoughts just don't make sense.

But it's still our reality. Except it's not based in reality. But it's real and we had better accept it and take those pills. But then not talk about it and pretend it's not real.

It's all a bit of a joke.

[hopeless2015]

Hugs!! I understand, its so hard. Sometimes I feel like I don't even know who I am nd At 44 it's very hard to share even simple things with others

[loophole]

Originally Posted by CopperStar

I feel ya. Or at least I think so.

We experience our.. well experiences, but are told that they are not based in reality, that they are based in mental illness.

But then we get told that our mental illness is reality and that we need to accept it, suck it up and comply with treatment.

Then people don't want to acknowledge our reality, so we create yet another reality for other people in which we're practically just houseplants with no lives or experiences.

But then when we have "episodes" we're told that we're not in touch with reality, be it psychosis issues or that our feelings/thoughts just don't make sense.

But it's still our reality. Except it's not based in reality. But it's real and we had better accept it and take those pills. But then not talk about it and pretend it's not real.

It's all a bit of a joke.

What you said was beautiful. I just quoted you in a text message. Makes perfect sense when you say it like you did. Thanks a million

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[Woolly Bugger]

I don't like to burden anyone with the truth about my illness. It's easier that way. I don't even talk about it with my family, although some of them know. After reading posts on this forum I thought I would give it another go, so I told a quasi-friend about my illness. I thought it would be appropriate since his daughter is bipolar, but it just made us both uncomfortable. Being fairly stable, I don't plan on telling anyone else, ever. But I don't know what I'd do if were unstable and needed help.