Comorbidity - share your diagnosis / possible reason you have this (genetic/environme

I have:
Bipolar 1
Clinical depression
ADHD
Generalized anxiety disorder
panic disorder
OCD
Complex ptsd

I'm not diagnosed (im not self diagnosing either) but I think + wouldn't be surprised if I have
-Dependent/histrionic/borderline personality disorders
-also social anxiety

I'm think (actually im positive) I have these mental illnesses because of a biological/environmental/psychological omg....

Biological: im first generation in American and both my parents aren't diagnosed with anything.
-***But I'm 900% sure my dad has antisocial+narccistic personality disorders. If you knew him.. U don't even need to be a doctor to diagnose this.... .
-he was extremely abusive / no remorse / no guilt / manipulative / charismatic (he knows it too) / like I can just go on he pretty much is like master of disguise tbh and
-pretty much left an emotional scar in my mine (still have memories flashbacks every single day from over 3-10 years ago)
***-Mom: shows exact description of borderline personality disorder (probably more extreme/increased emotions from my dad)
-Her marriage was codependent for 20+ years
- I was gaslighted into thinking she's crazy
Anyways-- I probably have some genes passed onto me and that's why I'm unstable now (even as a child)

Environmental:
Witnessed/experienced lots of Trauma
-sexually abused 2 times as a kid (remembered 100%) // I think I was sexually abused way more than that though as a kid I just can't remember but I acted out a lot sexually in preschool and I guess that wasn't normal compared to what is normal... I was raped at 13. I was nearby when my mom was sexually abused a lot by my dad but I didn't understand at the time . .... I became hypersexual/asexual and was addicted to watching graphic videos at 8-9... Lost my virginity impulsively at 15 (did not have sexual or romantic attraction to boy) (felt disgusting) feel uncomfortable not only bc anxiety uncomfortable but sexually Uncomfortable . Etc
-I was hit a lot (punched kicked etc) but in ways so I don't bruise so it wasn't obvious. It was painful I think it's like as loud as screams on rollercoasters.. I saw my mom get beat up a lot several times when I was little. And as I got older (middle school/13)..
-for psychological that was literally every single day like 1,200+ days of being yelled at everyday and it lasts from "you're stupid" "shut up" for a minute to 1-2 hours of yelling and lecturing how pathetic and worthless I am ... Soooo that obviously prob took some effect on my esteem lol.,,....
Same with my mom
--Oh I had no friends I couldn't make any close friends or anything from preschool-now (most my friendships throughout my life were codependent friendships/I was very unstable extreme in them too) and so family life+ school life was horrible ..

Psychological: my coping skills were bad
Impulsive reckless activities as I came of age
Drinking alone in 8-9th grade
Self esteem was horrible (someone told me they think I have body dysmoprhia, looked it up .. 150% me lol) I could go on lol

-Earliest time I felt suicidal was 8-9 years old + Self harmed at 8-9 years old
-Earliest time I hated myself and felt like I was ugly was 4 years old

Okay anyways lol wow I wrote a lot I don't think anyone will read this but

I'm 17 right now and im still not okay

(((just recently got out of another codependent relationship of 2 years and was psychologically manipulated in every way and emotionally abused but it was more passive aggressive so it was hard to detect) (also he was the reason I overdosed -not intentionally- -was encouraged to smoke and drink even tho I said I was on 5 psych meds-) (also kept telling me to shut up while I was in a stupor). (Also dissociated -depersonalization for ONE MONTH after) (and threatens me /emotional blackmail/guilt/etc of if ever expose him) so that's pretty stressful and I relapsed into a really bad depression again and my therapist and I thinks he's the reason for my recent repressed memories showing up because he reminds me of my father and. I just got out.... ))))))

!!!but I'm better than before ...
Besides losing 10lb in one month
and having moods of feeling everything at once or nothing at all (like derealization/depersonalization)
and panic attacks especially when I'm triggered by the name (end up having chest pain) and
all these somatic symptoms
And not going outside for a month (like went outside once a week for 30 mins for groceries or appointments etc)
And sleeping too much 12-16 hours
Or not at all 18-48 hours no sleep straight
And not eating anything (less than 1 meal a day)
And feeling too tired to even go out with acquaintances yet I want to
And not being able to do things I like like guitar or watch a movie

I just feel like I'm wasting .
But I am better than before

I just am easily stressed

I would label myself as a hypersensitive person + an empath

Maybe codependent as well.

I kinda got off topic uhh...

Anyways what does everyone else have to share?

You have been through a lot. I'm proud of you for being able to "see" and understand so much at such a young age.

You seem very strong and I know you will figure all this out and flourish.

I have Bipolar II and PTSD.

I think for almost every one, it will be a combination of both genetics and environment. I have a family history of poor mental health. Also, some abuse as a child.

i think my illness is result of both environmental, psychological, and physiological

my dad suffers but is in denial and absolutely will not see a doctor for depression
my mom also suffers and self medicates

i guess i got a bit of both bundles, self medicating my young years away and waking up 1 day like wtf happened to me

im sorry you had to go through those traumatic events, i also went through those things

I believe that I was born with a vulnerable brain due to genetics, and then an extremely chaotic and abusive childhood combined with that genetic vulnerability gave me several things to severe degrees. I do believe that if I had grown up in a healthy environment, I probably still would have had some issues but that they would have been mild and I would have developed good coping skills for them.

Official Diagnoses:
- BP 1 w/ Psychotic Features
- PTSD
(current pdoc who I have seen twice so far wants to start out with "episodic mood disorder nos")
- Vaginismus (physiological disorder)

Other speculations from therapists but not official diagnoses:
- DDNOS
- GAD
- EDNOS (I don't really agree with this one, I stop eating when stressed and can have some mild OCD tendencies, but so do a lot of people)
- OCD (for intrusive thought problems)

I also think I have Borderline PD traits, maybe complex-PTSD, but I never found a professional who was comfortable with that notion.

Also this was a really good read:

Violence in Bipolar Disorder | Psychiatric Times

It goes into how violence in people with BP is usually not from the BP, but rather because so many people with BP have a history of childhood abuse / violent trauma, which exacerbates the mood disorder. However the tendency for violence when present is actually due to the comorbidity of childhood trauma and the mood disorder, not the mood disorder itself. So it touches both on how childhood trauma can exacerbate a mood disorder, as well as how this type of correlation is common enough to be worth noting, since the prevalence of violence among people with BP has almost nothing to do with the BP itself.

I have bipolar 2 disorder. It is said that is comorbid with antisocial personality disorder rather often. I have been arrested 9 times in my life. Probation too. Jail also for 30 day sentence. I am capable of being a smooth talker at times. 107 girls my story line. I have swindled people out of there money such as people i disliked for personal gain. I lack guilt at times depending on how I like the person. Ive been capable of talking my way out of trouble with the cops also. Its been proven. A few months ago i was facing some charges. Sometimes i am callous towards my dad as he can get persistently annoying at times. I have a drinking problem which needs to decrease as time goes on. I display violent behavior at times usually when I get angry. Usually people with antisocial personality disorder get irritable where i can get irritable rather often. and as time goes on i consistently feel like i have these traits. Tell me what you think!