I'm recovering from yet another Spring hypomania and i am struck by how i seem to be two people inhabiting the same body. One wants to socialize -- the other wants to be alone. One wants to spend -- one wants to save. One wants to bodybuild -- one wants to relax. One wants to renovate -- one wants to leave everything as-is. One wants to get up at dawn -- one wants to sleep til noon.

It's like being two different people working at cross-purposes. I can't seem to get anything done.

It's not exactly like DID because i don't 'lose time.' I'm aware of my different states, unless i'm at the height of my hypomania when i lose all insight. It's just like i have two totally different lifestyles.

Does anyone else feel like this?

[Crazy Hitch]

Yeah, if I read this right, it explains the difference between when I'm depressed (leave me alone, don't want to spend, let me relax) .... and the hypo (spend, energy, socialise) etc.

I can be pretty ignorant when it comes to mania and what I'm doing I can be blissfully unaware of how destructive I'm being.

I can feel like two people too.

I feel like I am 3 people. Up, down and stable.

[Lonlin3zz]

Words.

My manic and depressed lifestyle has brought me positively far in a different way. Sometimes I wish I could bash the depressive side of me, it gets on my nerve.