[secretgalaxy]

That if I just sleep my mania will just go away. I keep telling her that making me stay in a dark room until sunrise will make me even more insane. She always compares me with my friends because they are "normal". She doesn't want to research and she just thinks will power is all it takes. Even in our family session, she went on a tangent about politics rather than trying to learn about the PHP program. I'm so close to just walking out and never come back. Why can't she get that I'm crazy? She thinks that because my meds aren't working like they used to, that they are stupid and blah blah blah.

I don't think I can take much more of it.

[Crazy Hitch]

It's hard to sleep when we just can't sleep!

I try and maintain as quiete a place as possible when I'm hypo and not sleeping, which can at times be challenging because I need to be quiete when the whole family is sleeping and I'm simply not.

I'm sorry that she doesn't want to research either as it can be frustrating living with someone that doesn't quite get this.

Perhaps she can go with you to your next pdoc appointment?

Sleep is usually a cure to mania... If you go to hospital they will also put you to sleep. Can you meditate the night away til morning?

Originally Posted by secretgalaxy

That if I just sleep my mania will just go away. I keep telling her that making me stay in a dark room until sunrise will make me even more insane. She always compares me with my friends because they are "normal". She doesn't want to research and she just thinks will power is all it takes. Even in our family session, she went on a tangent about politics rather than trying to learn about the PHP program. I'm so close to just walking out and never come back. Why can't she get that I'm crazy? She thinks that because my meds aren't working like they used to, that they are stupid and blah blah blah.

I don't think I can take much more of it.

making parents understand is difficult.

trust me, i know first hand.

and i'm sorry she is like that with you

[gina_re]

It's always hard when dealing with family. I'm always asked the "did you take your meds" question. I haate that question. As much as I'm on, I'm pretty sure I would be able to tell the difference. And since I've been taking them for years, it's pretty much automatic. So yes, I did take my meds. At any rate, many people think it's all in our heads and it will go away, unfortunately. I had to sit my mom down and explain what was going on in my head as best as I could. Since then, she seems more empathetic.
And you're not crazy, you have a mental illness. : )
Good luck and I hope it all works out!

[secretgalaxy]

Even if I sleep, I will still be manic or at least hypo. My meds tried knocking me out and they did for a little while but now I am still manic.

I have made her sit down and listen to how I feel and what she can do to help me, but she would rather believe her own way. She is starting to somewhat understand that I am not trying to do anything on purpose. We had a couple of arguments but now it seems to have settled down.

[gina_re]

It's frustrating when it's family that has this type of attitude. It wasn't overnight that my mom became understanding, but she's better now. Sometimes it takes time. I know that's easier said than done, but maybe some space apart isn't so bad in the mean time.

you would think that parents would be the ones that try to be the most understanding...

i've had my own parents understand these sorts of issues about as much as a stranger would if i complained to them out of the blue... it's incredible... it really is. so incredible, it's not credible in any shape or form. unbelievable is a better word, because belief goes beyond what this is.

i'm sorry for your loss... it's something i've dealt with myself for a long time... too long. guess it really is a matter of letting time pass... who knows... hope you're able to get through it...