I just don't want to live any longer

[Crazy Hitch]

I'm sorry that you feel this way (((Lunatic Fringe)))

I hope that you are getting the professional support that you really do deserve

[Ripose]

I went through a very long and terrible period of not wanting to live. I tried to end it a few times but failed. Now here I am, finally on the right meds and without the slightest urge to die.

Be persistant, be honest with your doctors and therapists when the meds are not helping and keep looking for additional forms of treatment.

I have been where you are now and I send you my heart and soul to help you through this.

- Ripose

[Lonlin3zz]

I can understand you're in pain, and your thoughts of ending your life seems rational for the amount of pain you're in, but it's a dangerous thought that should be thrown away.

It's not going to change anything if you die, but it will have a chance for things to change if you live on. I'm sorry that the only help I can render, is just my presence and understanding *hug*

[RisuNeko]

I think there's a tendency to think nothing will work when you're in that state. Not all the meds in the world could relieve your suffering. But that's black and white thinking. I've fallen victim to it so many times. It's a dangerous way to think. And unfortunately it's my brains default.

[lovejoy91]

Yet your life is worth fighting for. Think about it. You're a trooper. Don't give up or give in.

Thanks everyone. I've been enduring a flare up with my degenerative arthritis and it seems to be affecting my mental state. I'm debating about whether to seek some in depth treatment for it. The words back surgery honestly scares the h@#* out of me.

[gina_re]

Keep fighting, we got your back!!

[CopperStar]

You're one of the few people who was chill and interested when it came to discussing the pros/cons of eugenics with me. You're that sort of mind that seeks wisdom and knowledge in a way that is fearless and above how society tells you to feel and what to think and talk about, and what not to. I think it would be a tragic waste if you left early.

you're not alone... (((((((Lunatic Fringe)))))

And arthritis sucks. (I have it too -- hip, and flaring up recently as well.) You're right, it doesn't help our mental states.
So much more to say, but wanted to let you know ... I really truly hear you and hope you get to feeling better soon.

[~Christina]

Checking out is only allowed on the 6th Tuesday of the 11th Month on a day that doesn't end in the letters "day" and on a full purple moon and Northern lights that take the shape of Unicorns with tiara's made out of skittles

On a serious note, I get it

My heart goes out to you. I've been there, and know too well how awful it feels. They say that when people are depressed, they don't REALLY want to die, they just want the pain to end. When I'm depressed, I really want to die.

Please remember this too will pass. As people on this board have pointed out, this illness CYCLES. You won't feel like this forever.

Sending you big hugs and I hope this phase passes quickly for you. (((HUGS)))

[LettinG0]

((((lunatic))))))

[HALLIEBETH87]

I just went through this and it was a strong desire. I almost did it but I'm glad I didn't. Remember, with bipolar-it cycles. The desire will fade a hard as it is to believe.

Do you see a t regularly? It might be good to talk it over with them. They can help you get through this hurdle.

I'm glad you feel safe to post here. Keep coming back.

Ty for existing.

[*Laurie*]

[Edgar's Mom]

I don't know you yet but I want to offer you compassion and support. Like everyone else here, I know how that feels and it sucks. You know you won't feel that way forever and that it will pass. Once it does, you'll be very glad you didn't act on it.

Are you safe right now?

Yes, I am safe. Thanks for asking. I just had a some glancing thoughts the other day. With my friends here, I will survive. And, I am not a good conversation starter. Anyone here who wishes to pm me, it would be a pleasure for them to do so.

[champagneferret]

I'm so sorry. I hope the encouraging posts here help you. Please call a crisis line if you really feel at rock bottom.

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[BipolaRNurse]

I went through a suicidal depression last fall that landed me in the hospital for the first time. So I know how frightening it can be to be in the middle of one of those. Just remember, you have felt that way before and survived it, and you will again. As you know, bipolar is a cycling beast and you WILL cycle out of this depression. Sometimes it takes a while, but the sun always comes out again and you'll want to be here to see it. Hang in there...the good times will come back. ((((HUGS))))

Originally Posted by CopperStar

You're one of the few people who was chill and interested when it came to discussing the pros/cons of eugenics with me. You're that sort of mind that seeks wisdom and knowledge in a way that is fearless and above how society tells you to feel and what to think and talk about, and what not to. I think it would be a tragic waste if you left early.

I'm glad someone feels that way and has the nerve to say it. People here, who I don't know in real life, are more concerned than my immediate family. One brother likes to say, "One day we might need you." As if I am no use to be around today.