[Lonlin3zz]

*zzz...zzz...Warning: The core system is currently experiencing malfunctioning"

This is to describe my current mood, and versus the anticipated rational thoughts to cope against this. It's god-damn conflicting, I have to rationalize my thoughts before letting it happen and it's causing my brain to short-circuit.

Current - I just feel like smashing a chair repeatedly over head of someone I hate for no apparent reason today.
Rational - No, I cannot hurt a child of another person.

Current - I'm like "I don't care who you are or what you think of me, just shove it (opinion) up yo ***"
Rational - I should take it as a pinch of salt.

Current - Sees a noob in a damn game, "I'll teach you whose better at the game, I'll make sure you won't play the game ever again * Proceeds to raep him til he leaves game*" So what if he cries or something, it's his god damn issue.
Rational - I should be sensitive of another person's feeling even if they are a virtual player.

Current - Went to a balcony at my god mother's house at 23rd storey, " I could fly down from here and do a land-roll like james bond "
Rational - No, it would be impossible to survive this impact. I should really refrain myself from these thoughts.

Current - Nobody's gon stop me from doing what I want.
Rational - I have to understand what's right and wrong about my decisions.

Current - I just have this strong feeling of hooking up with a virgin over a dating site who is about my age. $150 for 2 hrs is nothing to me.
Rational - No, I wouldn't want that to happen if I had a daughter. No, it's a waste of my money. No, she is someone's else daughter, I have to treat her with care, not like this.

Current - So what? She's just doing it for money, and probably won't give **** about your feelings.
Rational - No, I might fall in love with her. No, I'm sure she's gon film me and put it up on a porn site or something and the whole school gon know about it.

Current - I could give her $150 for that 2 hours to listen to my thoughts and vent my frustrations, no hook-up, just sharing stories with a stranger.
Rational - You are god damn stupid if you waste $150 on a girl just to have her listen to your god damn problem that she probably laughs at your stupidity or just give 0 shits about it.

Current - Man, I could spend $60 on this ergonomic leg-less chair. It looks damn cool.
Rational - I don't have any use of it even if I buy it. I'll probably sit at a normal chair and start surfing the web.

Current - I could sign up for a vegan cooking class that I've been yearning for.
Rational - I may end up losing my interest abruptly like when I had registered for my 1st cooking class.

This force is getting stronger and overwhelming, I'm so afraid it's going to destroy the rational thoughts I have to cope with these, and I end up making regrettable decisions.

This, cannot happen. This must not happen. It's not going to rectify by itself.

If it happens, it will leave a trial of mess that will be hard to clean up.

[Sesiley]

Wow. Welcome to my boat lol

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