[xxKaneLovesZoexx]

Hey everybody,

I am just coming in to check up and say hi, and just have a bit of a talk. Please excuse the non-coherent I've had the "happy" pills.

I have a history of mental illness since I was 7 years old, being 20, nearly 21, it's a rather long time.

I understand that PC doesn't like discussion of suicide but really, it's inevitable. I have gone from being stable to sometimes slight episodes of the blues. Right? Nothing drastic.. Then to somewhat being aggressive and snappy, sleep all the time, you know the tell-tale signs of depression.. Then Psychosis began. I would begin feeling like this for a while however the symptoms began to happen every day, but would switch within hours. Hour one; End of the world, everyone hates me, why am I here, who are you cheating on me with, your a ***** ect ect then; hour two; Your the best person in the world, I can do anything I want to put my mind to, I even was working 4 jobs! I would write lots, draw, cycle. Then a low, all in one day..

So anyway, diagnosed with BP/Cyclo. Sent to see the Pdoctor, and never seen since. Medication began, Lorazepam PRN, then they were stopped. Then I was on Citalopram, stopped, sertaline instead. Then Lorazepam started, then stopped again and replaced with seroquel 25mgx3 times a day. Never once in my life have I had thoughts of killing myself, until today.

I tried, twice. Couldn't die. Rope failed.. Anyway. If I tell my doctor I tried hanging myself, what would the outcome be?

[ensconce]

Add a Trigger icon. If you tell a doc you went that far you might get sent to a safe place for a while. Theres always hope, its always there but it may be hard to find at times.

[xxKaneLovesZoexx]

Originally Posted by ensconce

Add a Trigger icon. If you tell a doc you went that far you might get sent to a safe place for a while. Theres always hope, its always there but it may be hard to find at times.

Trigger Icon added. Just want other people's view on what happen if they had the same situation.

[Ripose]

I have not felt that way in quite awhile but the last time I just told my wife I wasn't feeling well and that I really needed a hug. Hugs are great if you can get one when you need it. If my wife was not available I would come on this site and find solace from reading the words of others who felt like me and how they dealt with it.

[BipolaRNurse]

The last time I felt that way, I was hospitalized. At least I was safe until I could get stabilized. Please consider inpatient treatment, it can save your life!

Happens to move of us than you realise (rope snapping) Pdoc haa liely heard it and can get you help.

[CopperStar]

You should probably go to the ER and get yourself into IP. That you went from having never contemplated suicide at all to making an attempt in under 24 hours says to me that you are in an extremely volatile and impulsive state of mind. You could also be dangerous to others, not just to yourself, something to keep in mind.

Please go to the hospital, just to be safe. It's better to self admit than to be admitted. You're worth it- and remember, suicide is a permanent answer to a temporary problem.

[WibblyWobbly]

This is not something you have mulled over for months. You need to realize that you are making impulsive decisions and acting rashly. Please go to the ER. You don't know if this is progression of your illness or a reaction to meds. They can evaluate you and help you get back to your rational mind. Please let us know how you are doing.

[cakeladie]

Suicide is never the answer please go to the ER and go IP for some help. You will not regret it. Please.