No more therapy or meds

My doctor is fine I just don't want meds. My time should be given to a person that wants it and needs it not me. Wasting resources the others desperately want but I can't give away.

Do you have a crisis plan, just in case this goes really badly?

I personally don't think there's anything wrong with attempting to function without meds, if for nothing else than to know for sure whether or not you need them, for future knowledge. But being unnecessarily reckless is a red flag that you're not thinking clearly right now.

There is also the option of waiting and getting your next round of refills before quitting with your pdoc, so that you could start up again if needed while waiting to get in with a new pdoc if you need to do so in the future, to help prevent a crisis. Combine this with a solid plan for if you do have a crisis, and then at least you're going forward in a methodical, thought-out manner with consideration to how others could be affected if it doesn't go well.

If you think it is impossible that this could go badly, that you are invulnerable
If you can't bring yourself to plan this out carefully
If you feel no regard for how others could suffer if you have an unmanaged crisis

Then I honestly doubt you are fully yourself right now. Because most of your posts have always come across to me as thoughtful and caring, so disregard for others and refusal to be strategic are not who you are.

I just want to cut and run. My husband was mad when I told him. He was like " your just going to ignore (psychotic event), (psychotic event) and x that just happened a couple of days ago!"

I have a crisis plan but it doesn't stop us from waiting way to long. T keeps adding and tighting it until I go to the hospital for every little blip. It could go really, really bad if I stop my AP which I'm not planing to for about 4+ months unless my insurance says otherwise. I want just abilify w. Add on when depressed. My pdoc I like but he's about adding without removing I went from 2 pills to 5 pills. So I'd go back to pdoc if I had to. Am I being reckless?

I wouldn't cancel the appointment until the week of. no regard for how others could suffer if you have an unmanaged crisis <<<<<< that one

Youre being reckless. You need to talk to your t about all of this. What about your son How can you take care of him when you become a complete mess again? We all tell you the same thing over and over again.

Don't stop your meds again.

Are you psychotic right now? Is this "healthy" thinking?

Yes. You seem very upset with your therapist/doc and his diagnosis (and maybe recent incidents). You should discuss this with husband and therapist and look for a new therapist if that is the main issue. One thing you should not do is just cut cold turkey. You should at least try tapering off or possibly switching meds through discussions of this with the therapist/doc. I'm guessing something needs adjusting. Seems to me that if you proceed with this plan you are going to end up in the hospital. I know you want to be off meds, but maybe you should consider voluntary admission to try and work things out - meds/tapering/diagnosis/issues....

Yes. You are being reckless.

You have never stayed on meds for nearly long enough for them to actually GET YOU to proper stability. So of course they never "work" - you don't use them properly so you don't give them a CHANCE to work!

I don't understand why you don't understand that.

Please be careful.....and not impulsive......

I don't know a lot about your history but like many others have stated I think you are being rash....

And, as Copper stated....you don't normally seem rash and foolish to me.....

Take care of yourself, please.

I have ten days until pdoc (I didn't know) and nine days until my injection. I'm going to sit down and make my case to withdraw and talk to him. Then decide whether I'm keeping him, the meds. I have t that day too.