[Standup2me]

Have you ever felt this way? I don't wanna play with the other kids today
It is cold and raining. I want my blankie and a good book

[dislexia1214]

Originally Posted by Moreta

I've been feeling a lot better. I've done a lot of work in therapy and have the right medications.

Last night I painted 2 small paintings and made 2 bracelets. I also started on a necklace, but had to go pass out.

Today I'm going to a focus group about e-cigs and they're going to give me a $125 check for my opinion. Can't beat that. I try to use the damn things and always go back to regular cigs. I'll prob tell them that.

Well that's awesome! Someone else suggested arts and crafts for depression, but although it sounds great it's hard to get in the mood when the blah feeling sets in deep. I am feeling much better today than yesterday and the last few days. Seasonal depression has set in... Don't want to get my hopes up too high but maybe it's on the outs already and I can get back to closer to normal. Thanks again for the positive attitude. It's good to read success.

[gayleggg]

Feeling really depressed today. In trying to save money I cut off considerable extras. It has left me feeling like a loser. It's back to the basics for us., which we'll be lucky to continue to pay for the basics. True I haven't turned off the internet yet, but it's probably next.

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[BlackSheep79]

So depressed today. There's so much going on and I'm falling apart. I work a twelve hour shift tomorrow and at the moment I don't even know if I can do it. They need me at work, but I can barely get off the couch. Sorry for the pity party.

[BlackSheep79]

Originally Posted by dislexia1214

Feeling the same here...maybe gettting slightly worse, hell I can't tell sometimes. Anyway, thank you for continuing to post about your experience with the Geodon. My doc also recommended Seroquel but I told him that I have 2 kids and would like to be able to hear them if they need me at night and I know Seroquel won't allow that for me. But I am glad now that I didn't take the Geodon, just had a bad feeling about it.

My pdoc mentioned invega sustenna, but it isn't as strong as Geodon for sleep. If Geodon doesn't work I guess that's the next one. You for sure will not hear your kids on Seroquel.

[Unrigged64072835]

Back after a long absence of juggling more Med changes and a few IPs thrown in for fun.

My pdoc is putting me on Abilify since Geodon caused a really prolonged QT. More EKGs, fun! I may also have to stop taking Thorazine, which means nothing to help me sleep. Why is my body and brain so fickle?

At least the depression is easing up. Thank goodness for small mercies. I thought I would have to do another IP. Now is that watching to see that I don't feel TOO good.

[scatterbrained04]

Feeling kind of overwhelmed again. Had my house fairly clean two weekends ago, and my son has it a wreck again. I'm really fighting the anxiety. Part of me can't wait for him to grow up and move out. That sounds terrible. I'll actually be really upset when he does. He's my world. I just wish I didn't feel like I can't enjoy my life until it's clean. It's so stupid.

this week's certainly been mixed in terms of good/bad.

on the plus side, I got my new internet and I finished off my amazon Christmas shopping

on the bad side, I've been starving myself, had 1 panic attack, and as usual struggled with sleep

[KaylaDee33]

i'm feeling okay, but fear I may be getting depressed because I'm spending a lot of time alone. isolating, basically. i have little interest in things besides my blog and reading. I feel like Im ignoring my husband because I just want to be alone but it is so hard to fake interest and Im the type of person who will selfishly just do what I feel like.
I've decided to go to a support group here locally next week so I'm looking forward to that.
Things could be worse, so Im grateful they're not.

[gayleggg]

Feeling down again today. All the rain has kept me inside and I just find the flood situation depressing. I had to lower my cable to a cheaper plan so even tv sucks. Trying to lower bills I find to be triggering. Too broke to go anywhere too depressed to care.

[Moreta]

It took me 1 hour to go pick up my meds that were at CVS 6 miles away. My college is having homecoming this weekend and all the roads around there were packed. Had to go the back way to get home and almost ran out of gas. I finally got to stop for gas, and got some cigs, cause I ran out of them too. That is the last time I go to the CVS to get my meds filled.

[Cocosurviving]

Originally Posted by Fharraige

Back after a long absence of juggling more Med changes and a few IPs thrown in for fun.

My pdoc is putting me on Abilify since Geodon caused a really prolonged QT. More EKGs, fun! I may also have to stop taking Thorazine, which means nothing to help me sleep. Why is my body and brain so fickle?

At least the depression is easing up. Thank goodness for small mercies. I thought I would have to do another IP. Now is that watching to see that I don't feel TOO good.

Hi. Glad ur depression is getting better. I been there and it was death.

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[Cocosurviving]

Originally Posted by KaylaDee33

i'm feeling okay, but fear I may be getting depressed because I'm spending a lot of time alone. isolating, basically. i have little interest in things besides my blog and reading. I feel like Im ignoring my husband because I just want to be alone but it is so hard to fake interest and Im the type of person who will selfishly just do what I feel like.

I've decided to go to a support group here locally next week so I'm looking forward to that.

Things could be worse, so Im grateful they're not.

Hi. I think the group is a good idea. Prior to me moving out of my home state I went to groups and they really helped me. I'm also abt to start looking to start back in to groups in the new state I'm in. If your looking for resources check out NAMI. They may have a location in your area. Good luck.

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[fishin fool]

Hi still here

[cybermember]

It all started a year ago with my housemate buying a lot and then building a house and for me it went downhill from there. I finally asked pdoc to up my Geodon because I've been sleeping like crap and I'm currently $16,000 in debt. It needs to stop so I'm biting the bullet and opting to increase my meds but truly HATE the flat effect. Either it's that or the poor house and I can't do the poor house 'cause I need a new car in about 2-3 years so more meds it is.

[BlackSheep79]

I'm still having severe dizzy spells. I wouldn't say spells, once it starts 3-5 pm and stops when I'm sleeping. It has to be the Geodon. It spiked to 166/116. I made it through my twelve hour shift but have to go back in for another. I hope I feel better than I do right now. Although the akathasia wasn't too bad today. Hope everyone that's not having a good day feels better.

[dislexia1214]

I'm actually feeling close to a "normal" I guess today. Friday I had a horrible panic attack in my doctor's office and freaked out on a couple of nurses over an appt. for a new pdoc that they were supposed to let me know about. Well, that appt was missed because I never knew about it and can't get in again until Feb. 1st!!! They say they called me and I'm telling you they have 2 numbers to reach me and I have not missed, received, or gotten a voicemail call on any of my working numbers and the fact that they said they did for some reason really got to me at the time. I apologized to them and just left it at a miscommunication...I guess. Then because of everything on Friday I spent all day yesterday in bed with a migraine, throwing up. I think the rest (sort of) did me good though because I feel more refreshed today and way less depressed than I have been. Maybe I'm coming out of this phase???? I hope!

[Shadesofdark]

Feeling really depressed the last week and a half or so.

[Unrigged64072835]

Kind of in a down mood. Not sure what's going to get fixed first: the AC or the cat. Probably the cat. If we can't figure out what's going on with her we might have to put her down. That would really suck but it's better than her starving to death.

Just hope things stay cool. This may put a crunch into Christmas and my kid's college next year. I hate seeing money just slide out of our hands for this.

[gina_re]

I had some irritating moments, mostly family related. But them I took my nephew out for lunch and ice cream, so that was fun. But tonight was a different story..

[BlackSheep79]

Dizzy still, blood pressure thru the roof. I think I'm going to call pdoc and tell him to get me off of this Geodon now! I missed work again, can't do it. Let the fun start all over again with meds.

[Curiosity77]

5 year anniversary of my marriage ending today, which was also when I lost the hope that things might turn out ok for me after all. We would have been together 19 years if we were still together, and i was 19 when we met. So that was literally a lifetime ago. I had more energy to self destruct back then, but also believed somewhere inside that i would outgrow my problems and be a normal adult. 5 years today. I'm on track in some areas, doing great in some areas, but i'm so lonely. I'm sitting at home crying. Nobody sees this side of me.

I realized today that he cut me out of his life to give himself a chance at something better, and i think he's found it. Honestly i'm happy for him, because i still love him i guess, but i'm so sad for myself.

Why does time go so fast on the good days, and so slow on the bad days?

I am going super well made some changes that wernt hard to make, but I had to get to this point with body work. Its an amazing relief to know life gets better.

Pretty well. Better now that I am off cold medicine and sleeping better. Also, not drinking now that World Series is over.

Sorry --hardly getting to visit PC lately, too many things going.
Thinking of you all though...

Still in quite a bit of post-move chaos. That gets annoying for sure.

It's been interesting. Been doing pretty well overall. Physically, not good, though the MRI was enlightening. Finally some answers after 3 years...

Have a psych appt. today as a follow-up to last week's. Am forcing myself to talk about something I really don't want to. I LOATHE this "thing", and know it's really f'd up. Probably pointless, because I don't believe it can be fixed, but damn, guess constantly-triggered issues of major negative psychological impact should probably get mentioned... (Hey, it's only taken 5 years to admit.)