Are any of you guys happy?

Not really, no.

Happy no, despite the benevolence of my p docs prognosis. Im misereably, can concentratenfor long than 10 seconds because at the concerta is totoo risk after the mania i just had.....
Is there hope? Mine is dwindling......

I have an ideal life in my head of what I think happy looks like, but it's all future centered and nothing to do with the present. I am trying to learn how to be content in the present and at peace with the past - two very challenging disciplines. But we're all works in process and even though today you may not feel happy who knows where you'll be in 3 months, 6 months, or a year?

I feel like I'm almost happy and have been this way for about 4 months. I'm not like, laughing and smiling all of the time happy, but my mind isn't a bad place to be most of the time and I'm semi-productive. I have a job again, I'm in school again and I joined a gym. And I get to live with my cats again. I've also been more creative lately, with drawing and painting and origami, which I'm happy about. I still deal with anxiety and avoidance issues and just generally being antisocial, but I'm doing okay. I guess I'm somewhat good but mostly just neutral.

I want to thank all of y'all who've posted on this thread. I have forgotten how bad things have been in the past. They are so much better than they were!
Many of you have reminded me that things really can get better and that my attitude has become quite negative.
Y'all have reminded me that if I get back up and try; there is much more hope than I've been admitting.
With me an attitude adjustment is in order.

hehe... ive very recently learned to see that the happiness i get out of seeing someone get personal understanding that can change their lives is a unique kind of happiness... and i think its interesting how it feels... since i never tried to look for it before...

life, for us... i believe... is about learning... so, changes... learning where our "self" stands in the issues... life has a habit for chaos... and thats where learning takes place... within that chaos... otherwise, in harmony, everything would be perfect, in place, and nothing needs to be learned or changed... constant... no problems... no internal conflicts... no anything... as ideal as that sounds, the reality is we are in our own chaotic harmony... constant chaos... constant changes... constant learning... constant opportunity for improvement... for goodness...

sometimes people need direct help, sometimes they want to help themselves... whatever the case, i hope that we can reflect from each others (and, even beyond this forum, any one elses) words... even in someones wrong, there can still be some right... just have to keep reminding urself to be open to these things and make everything a learning experience...

no bliss necessary... no super high goodness of good happy grass is greener mind is cleaner life is sweeter Journey songs... no "kumbaya"... no yoga... no holding hands... spirituality... fake smiles... pretentious positivity... no walls... false identities... sudden "mind blowing"... sudden life change that changes the "game" for you... none of the theatrics... most of that stuff feeds to mania anyway... making moments so false... soap operas and romance films lol... cliches and one-liners... one moment ur down, then someone says something, and now ur a whole new person... the movie ends happily ever after... the end...! now to face reality again... only now the feelings we had from that movie (may have) ended with the movie...

none of that... just understanding... honesty... self-awareness... humanity... and experiencing... remembering that an experience is to be experienced, not glorified... instead, to reflect on... learning urself, shedding the layers of ur "self"... and how u can move forward with ur new layers...

the rest of the other stuff, obviously excluding the psychic barriers i mentioned, are icing to the cake... to make the cake taste far sweeter... faith can be ur best buddy... but even moreso, so can the man in the glass... spoilers...... urself...

but life is a journey... different journeys... requiring different paths at different times with different methods of travel such as cars, vans, motorcycles, busses, trains, planes, jets, and even your own two feet... sometimes those vehicles break down... sometimes we need to make a pit stop... get some gas, go to the bathroom, eat, rest, overall just take a break... but the journey is still there for us to take... so we wonder... literally... what is the next "step"?...

take what u can from each other and LIVE, and hopefully even LOVE, ur journey as much as u can...

oh...! and on a personal note... if anyone is interested... ive found journaling and poetry as great means for reflection... not just on myself... but on life itself... im actually hoping to become a published poet some day... so with what ive been able to read and write, ive learned and have been having a lot of fun...

Do you see a pdoc? Are you newly diagnosed? Being bipolar can bring you down just knowing you have it. I have learned, with the help of a therapist, to accept it as part of me and who I am. I do the things to keep me well and I constantly use the knowledge I have learned to talk myself down in situations that are a trigger. I also try to avoid triggers as much as possible. I take my meds and I am doing well. I'm not always happy per say, but I do find a lot of contentment. If you are not seeing a therapist I would suggest you try to get with one.

I wouldn't consider myself happy, but I am somewhat content with life right now. If I live, cool, if I died the next minute, great. I would rather be dead than live, but I am not going to go through with any plans. It may be some manic residue still floating around, but I do feel like I am going to get depressed soon. Hopefully, my meds will do their magic!