[jtassar93]

I've had one hell of a week so talking to someone finally was great. She dismissed my hearing things and head racing as depression/anxiety symptoms. She did suggest a hospital stay since I'm suicidal, which I refused. She is seeing me more often now so I'll see how that goes.

Did a hospital stay help any of you when you've felt suicidal? I might just suck it up and do it.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

I just got out of the hospital Friday for med changes that couldn't be done outpatient and suicidal thoughts with a plan but not intent. That started improving as soon as I was admitted because I was safe and being taken care of so that I'd stay safe. By Friday I was still very depressed but not suicidal and since I didn't really want to spend a weekend doing nothing IP the dr and I agreed I could go home if I would go back in if anything changed. So far it hasn't and my therapist wasn't worried about me today. 10 days ago he would have sent me in against my will if he could have.

The hospital really helped me. I know it is scary sounding but it's not that bad and it just feels safe and for me that helped so much. That and being able to socialize with people who knew how I felt. I actually had fun at times despite the severe depression. I learned some new coping skills and also the root of my problem, which is a year and a half of dealing with things that are isolating and sad and very little fun or relaxation time in those months. I think I laughed more last Tuesday than I had laughed in months, just playing a stupid game while waiting for supper.

I would go and try it and see if it helps. It can't feel much worse, right?

[LettinG0]

Thanks for the update. Glad you are seeing T more often.

Oh goodness gracious, yes! Going IP is the only thing that saved my life twice. I can say that emphatically. Please consider a hospital stay if you even remotely think you can't keep yourself safe. Hugs!

[gina_re]

I'm glad you made it to your appointment! I've been to the hospital twice for suicidal issues, and sometimes it's what you have to do to keep yourself safe and get the care you need. It really did help and I hope you're able to find what works for you. Take care of yourself.

[jtassar93]

Thanks everyone. I think I might consider hospitalization. My next appointment is this Friday so we'll see!

[wildflowerchild25]

The hospital has helped me several times when I've been out of control of my behavior, including suicidal and taking steps toward it. Sometimes it's not even about getting anything out of it, it's just a safe place to stay. This last IP trip in June was like that. It was just a safe place to stay while I tried to wrap my head around my trauma. It was a good idea to go in even though I desperately wanted to stay out for my son. Without it I'm not sure what would have happened.