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I was reading the songs forum earlier today and ive been on the hypomanic end of things today...reorganizing the kitchen and putting up fall decorations....ideas for new crafts and wanting it all done yesterday..know what i mean? Well ended up irritated with the kids bc they were being kids and interupted me on my mission... Boyfriend pisses me off just a little bit ago because he needs room for his **** on his work table and im trying to fill out a mood chart (ironically) for my appt tmrw but trying to hang out with him simultaneously (our routine) so i take my **** and get out of his way...and then i started having racing thoughts and talking to myself in my head and the song "demons" by imagine dragons is playing in the background (of my mind). Its kind of annoying but funny to think about it (ha!) And how its all jibber jabber in my head but on top of it comes a song that i havent heard in weeks but because i read the lyrics earlier its gotta pop in while im arguing with myself about my boyfriend with other random thoughts.
"Thats such ********, what a way to make me feel welcome" "He is all hyperfocused on finding a router, has to be up at 530am but gonna make me feel like im in the way" "Its where my demons hide its where my demons hide" "Dont get too close---- guess im gonna wait til tmrw to do more fall stuff--- its dark inside" "What do i do just sit here and wait til i gotta smoke a cig then go back down?" "I hope he feels lonely now" "Oh sure the cat can be all up in his **** but i cant have a few papers in the way" "Its where my demons hide" "I just dont get it" And repeat, repeat, repeat. Ever wake up in the morning and immediately have a song pop in? Thats annoying too. Like dude..too early for that song i need coffee first what the hell u doin? Lmao!
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Hate the racing thoughts, but love the song. Hope your appt. went well.
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racing thoughts truly suck.
and never heard the song (or the band) |
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When I am hypo/manic I have music playing in my head all day. For a few days I've been slightly hypo and have theory of a deadman playing. It's annoying when I have to concentrate on doing **** and I can't because of the music. I get where you're coming from.
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I have a real struggle with music playing in my head, note for note, when I'm trying to fall asleep. Sometimes I think it's a hypomania issue, other times I think other people (non-bipolar) have the same problem. Whatever the case having the music play relentlessly in my mind is like a mild torture. I love music, but really....
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So is this a bipolar thing? I'm truly not sure. |
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