[Nammu]

I'm so frustrated!

I started having problems sleeping, the noise/ music going on in my head and racing thoughts, really bad focus and totally enmeshed in the news....I thought well I see the pdoc soon I'll wait.

So fri I had my appointment. Thought it would be my last one with the pdoc I liked. Got there and the front said he left the day before they'd been trying to contact me.

So I said ok..they were asking if I had refills and looking for a date....then I asked if there was a nurse I could talk to, I was having symptoms and didn't know if I could just restart my AP. someone else overheard and asked me some ore question s and asked if the pdoc( a different one was in. ) I said I didn't need to bother a doc just a nurse wold be fine. She very much wanted me to see one"....and was going to send the Tech to bring me in for the BP then it wouldn't be that long...so I said sure

Really really like the new pdoc but I think she was just temporary, a place holder.
Long story short( well guess not really) I restarted the AP two nights ago

This is the part I'm having trouble with. I feel spaced out drugged but I sleeping better the noise has mostly stopped...but I can't concentrate....I can't focus..I stare at the tv but it doesn't ..it's not like I'm dissociating, I'm still seeing it but it's like my mind is white in front and racy inside....does this even make sense?

I got a book I've been waiting for for months it's taken me three days and I'm not even though the introduction yet. I'm just staring t the book but my mind is thinking of all these different things and I can't focus. I find myself staring at the wall and the movies is over and I have no idea what was on.

I read post on here can't think of anything to say, in games I stare, sometimes I can think of something but it takes me so long. It took me over an hour to get one post to make sense...I'm a bit snaky in current events and probably should be there right now...but that's what I'm kind of fixated on..it's a bit better today ..kind of I think

I'm just so fussier tatted please tell me someone's experience this before...I can't remember this being a side effect....maybe I shouldn't be taking the AP? Maybe all I needed was to get some sleep?

I got up three time to turn the light on and forgot

[99 FAIRIES]

I had a mood stabilizer do this to me before. I had next to no short term memory and couldn't focus at all. My pharmacist suggested I stop taking it because the side effects were so bad I couldn't even carry on a conversation. As soon as I stopped taking it I was back to normal.

[*Laurie*]

Whew. Yeah...sidestepper, you've described my experience of being on AP's, even at a low dose. Some AP's help me sleep (great!), some help stabilize my mood (also great!), but they all make me fuzzy-minded and cognitively dull. I constantly ask myself 'Is this worth it...should I stay on this stuff?' The problem is, when I'm not on an AP life is really bad.

I think you've described the dilemma of psychiatric medication, overall.

[Nammu]

Doing so much better yesterday afternoon things just started getting better. The racy thoughts quieted down the white fog went away

I wonder if these side effects are like birth it's a lot to go though but later you forget.

I up the dose Friday but I don't think it will be as bad.

Now to get that book read before it's due back!