[Victoria'smom]

So I've have been angry and over reactive, and have "caffeine" in my vains, and my leg won't stop shaking. I'm mostly okay but T says I'm up but this isn't UP for me. He even asked if my meds were working. Seriously if this is up then yeah not even close to my ups.

He's glad I'm asking for a nutritionist and wants me to stop all caffeine. He's concerned about me hurting myself. I'm not I don't think I will. How do I rid him of his concerns? My husband isn't concerned if my t is easily concerned then if I am going UP he'll hospitilize me! I don't want to be hospitalized! How do I fix this? He also wants me back on 150 effector to calm my anxiety . Isn't that bad if I am going up? I'm tempted to try to go up to 'show' him. Imagine how he would act/think if he knew I was smoking again.

[WibblyWobbly]

Sometimes when I'm up I'm happy, other times I'm agitated or even raging. It could be a new "up" for you?? I think Effexor is a terrible idea. It's an SSRI and I believe it made me manic after which I crashed and became suicidal. Why not Ativan, klonopin or Xanax for anxiety?

P.S. Try to resist the urge to stick it to him! I've felt that way before and it's an irrational thought because you're not feeling well right now.

[Blue_Bird]

You could just be going through a rough patch, being irritable doesn't always mean you're going "up"

This, however is a bad idea.

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

I'm tempted to try to go up to 'show' him.

My system is really sensitive to caffeine. I used to drink it like water but after my manic break I can't tolerate it anymore, except for one cup in the morning. Caffeine makes me jittery, nauseous, and anxious.

[Victoria'smom]

I'm on 75 effexor, but up until like 2 wKS ago I was on 150 we went down because the pills are huge. I'm hoping it isn't up it's just me. I'm against benzos for myself but have 7 just in case, plus a sleeping medicine which I'm not supposed to take just because I'm bored. He has no idea im that bored .

I'm finishing my last 2 lt. Then no more soda. Pink lemonade until.... forever?

I think Mil is just pis sing me off and triggering my ed.

[~Christina]

Please don't fiddle with your meds, Dont try to " show"him anything.. Everytime you go down that/this road it never ends well. Your treatment team is trying to help you find stability, don't trip yourself on purpose.

Good luck

[Victoria'smom]

I wasn't going to mess with my meds, that's like express to the hospital. I do however want to take the sleeping medicine to make the bordom go away. I don't know if I should stay at 75 or go back to 150. I'm thinking of just staying on 75. If I am heading up I don't need more ad, silly t.

I thought your ED was ruled during your last hospitalization? Either way...

Sleep meds can be addictive ... be careful. I don't think it's a good idea to combat boredom with them. Stay safe.

[Victoria'smom]

My ED wasn't officially in my charts for the last 5-6 years, I've been/am normal weight but because I asked for a nutritionist it's back in my file as ED-NOS. I slept today which is good.

That's great you got some rest. And the nutrionist, awesome!