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#1
have you ever missed the all nighters .. when it wasn't caused by your meds ...
when a bad mood was just that ... a bad mood ... when being pissed off was not a symptom ... when you could have all the caffeine you wanted ... when life seemed so promising ... when having a mental illness was the last thing on your radar ... when ip and op had no meaning to you at all ... when the only time you went to the Dr was when you had the flu ... when ......... |
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I never had MI...till 4 years ago.
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sure.. I want to go back to 12ish when everything was all lovely. had plenty of friends a gf, money didnt matter, I wasnt seen as crazy.. i could stay up all night sleep over and my parents wouldnt be worried about me.
A time when I didn't know anything about bipolar disorder. ip.. op.. why.. why me? cant dwell on it though. make improvements and look forward to what the future may bring you and live in the preasent. I try.. Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk |
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I do but at the same time, I need to learn that I can't go back. I could have been a lot of things but here I am, short of where I *wanted* to be. But, who knows? Life deals us all sorts of situations. Who is to say things wouldn't be different for the worse if I went on a different path? It's hard to accept, especially when family members and such continually remind us that we made "bad choices" and thus landed where we did. Of course, everyone else knows better, now don't they?
My mood and anger has caused me to implode off and on since I was around 21 - I could have been a doctor but bailed on my degree. Then I torpedoed a promising 20 year business career and floated around for a while, trying to "find my way". I landed safely and have been in my current job for over 10 years. I take BP as a blessing - I'm blessed with knowing my direction and what I need to do going forward. I've discovered so much about myself without even knowing it. The blessing is in the peace of mind. Life still is promising - hopefully, every day is a new beginning. |
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what was it that blue october said in their song..
" now your older and the wait is on your shoulder and your life is getting colder no more hiding in the old days" yeah.. i miss the old days, (or what few i had of them) |
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I don't know. I feel a lot better now than I did then. Then I was uncomfortable and unhappy about 90% of the time. Now I'm only uncomfortable and unhappy about 20% of the time. Doing good.
__________________ The darkest of nights is followed by the brightest of days. 😊 - anonymous The night belongs to you. 🌙- sleep token "I'm scared. I'm old. I want to go home!" 😁 - anonymous |
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It's the weekend. Don't walk into a corner of regret and ruminating.
Wire? Do you have it all planned out this time so you dont have time to overthink and worry yourself into a mess??? If no, Please do. Set schedules seems to help you flying level and not spinning out of control. Whats on your " To do" list? Have a good weekend this go around __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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I'm going to try .... going to try a little bdsm this weekend ... maybe ... fingers crossed ... "laser attention" ... clears the mind ... |
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