[Victoria'smom]

So T wont tell me if I'm (Hypo)manic. When I don't take my meds I'm less hyper, not as angry, I sleep, my head's not as loud, there's no bugs on my skin and my whole body isn't "caffeinated". I take the meds every other day so they're still in my system but this is getting annoying. I don't see the pdoc until mid-November. I'm going to start taking my meds regularly but the anger is going to get me hospitalized. I can't see him sooner, the med line is no help, and my family is in town for the next two weeks. HELP!!!!

Taking meds every second day or not as prescribed will give you side effects. Miss one day and you start the cycle.

Take the meds as prescribed. Write down ALL of you symptoms that you feel are med related and discuss with pdoc. Mid November is only a few weeks away.

Be cautious with welbutrin - that sent me absolutely nuts. Very similar to what you describe but I know you have had this feeling without it.

[Victoria'smom]

I'm writing down all my violent thoughts because they'll be the hardest to talk about. Luckily he reads my therapy notes before seeing me. I'm taking my meds as prescribed now but I swear they're making my symptoms worse not that I wouldn't have them otherwise. Just the intensity is more. mid-november feels so far away.

I'm not a doctor but that sounds just awful! Looking at your cocktail, for me the worse were the Welbutrin and Abilify. I hope you get to feeling better.

[Atypical_Disaster]

Your medications are only going to do what they are designed to do if you're taking them exactly as prescribed. I don't mean to sound harsh here but I've been watching your threads for a long time and it seems you probably subconsciously want some reason to not take your meds, now it's because you have this idea in your head that they are causing your symptoms. Now, there can be a grain of truth to that as you mentioned Wellbutrin, I've heard some awful stories from other people with bipolar disorder taking that... but messing around with your meds makes it impossible to know if any of your meds are making things worse or better. Again, I am not trying to be harsh here. I've been watching you struggle and I do get the whole messing with your meds thing, I've been there more times than I care to admit... but I've learned the hard way that staying on my meds and talking with my treatment team about possibly changing things before I go ahead and do it is the best way to go. My judgment is often compromised as the main "pole" I struggle with is mania and hypomania, I've had to learn that just because I think something is a great idea doesn't mean that it is.

I hope that you can talk to your treatment team about your meds in an honest way, if you think they're making your symptoms worse then you need to tell them that in my opinion. Write down everything, including the fact that you've been skipping doses and such.

Feel better.