[cashart10]

So much for one med. We added Abilify again. I'm not so well. Biting my hand now...wish I could bite holes. Sounds strange I know, but I don't know what to do with the sadness and the overwhelming frustration that I could possibly be here again. Went to a support group this evening. It was nice but I felt like I over shared. I may not go back for this reason. I haven't decided. It is a therapist led group and feels like a helpful, kind group of folks. I just feel like an idiot as the group is "overcoming adversity" and not about mental illness. They probably think I'm the crazy, psychotic red headed girl in the room. Oh well, can't do anything about it now. I feel so much emotion that it is emanating from me. I feel like people can see my weakness and I want to hide in the corner and die. My hands were shaking in the group and I felt a certain exhilaration from the anxiety. I was eager to share. They don't understand, but I do. And, I can hear myself talk. I didn't talk much, but I shared intimately. Anyway...venting.

[LadyShadow]

Hey there! Its good to vent! Sometimes I find it hard to share in certain situations, but that was very brave of you

Look at it this way, the medication does make you a bit uneasy yes, but you needed that group for the time and place that it was there. It was there when you needed it and you used it. Try to look at it from that angle. People, places and things come into your life at moments in time when you need them. That's the wonder about life and humanity.

If you want to go back to the group, go back, if not don't. You said your piece and if they didn't like it "oh well to them". I am glad you shared, never feel bad about that.

Stay strong!

[cashart10]

Originally Posted by PlatinumHeart

Hey there! Its good to vent! Sometimes I find it hard to share in certain situations, but that was very brave of you

Look at it this way, the medication does make you a bit uneasy yes, but you needed that group for the time and place that it was there. It was there when you needed it and you used it. Try to look at it from that angle. People, places and things come into your life at moments in time when you need them. That's the wonder about life and humanity.

If you want to go back to the group, go back, if not don't. You said your piece and if they didn't like it "oh well to them". I am glad you shared, never feel bad about that.

Stay strong!

Thank you!

It sounded like it was your first time there, no worries, no one will remember or care. If they were perfect they wouldn't have been there!

I hope things ease up for you hun.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Overcoming adversity is such a wide topic that I'm sure they've had people come and say almost anything. I think you should be proud that you went and go back and try again. My therapist says 4 times lets you know if the group is right. That's what I'm using to judge this current group I'm trying even though after one time I see problems (and a little positive).

[Atypical_Disaster]

Gah, I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. Bipolar is a heartless *****...

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I've been there with the whole wanting to bite holes in yourself thing, I sympathize.

[Wrangler girl]

Sorry to hear this. I too had a problem with abilify and anxiety
. It make my thoughts race so fast that I can't deal with more than one issue at a time. Also on other meds not sure what is worse the anxiety or the added abilify symptoms?? Hoping your feeling better soon

[mattjstead]

Abilify is the Devils drug in my opinion...it was hell when I was on it. But each is different !

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