[detfan4life]

After a few days of feeling good while visiting family, I came back home and woke up this morning feeling very, very bad. I'm trying to keep it in context but for some reason this time it's very hard. I'm trying to get back to work after a medical leave and that process is going much more slowly than anticipated, so it's very stressful and makes it hard for me to get out of bed. I'm feeling lonely after losing most of my friends and am craving connection but am not feeling well enough to do most of the things I would normally do. My pdoc convinced me to start lamictal yesterday and I'm feeling hazy, plus I'm worried about the side effects. I have my support group tonight but don't know if I can make myself go. Finally I moved into a new house a few months ago and still have not completely unpacked, and every time I look at my room I see the evidence of me being a failure. I don't know what to ask for from anyone except that I need to get these feelings out.

[Mountainbard]

It sounds like you've really been going through a lot lately. I hope you can find the energy to attend your support group. And I remind myself when I start to feel like a failure that it's the illness talking. Lamictal actually has very few side effects other than a rash (which is rare). I've been on it for a year and a half with no problems.

I hope you enjoy the time you spend here at PC. There are lots of friendly, understanding people here who are willing to provide feedback, support, and encouragement. Remember to be gentle with yourself.