[BeyondtheRainbow]

I'm scared of my pdoc appointment. I don't know what is going to happen and nothing seems like it is good. The 2 MAOIs I found out I could get that I did not think were covered are not the ideal meds for me, either one. And I'm not convinced that my current MAOI isn't working; I think my seroquel isn't working and that is leading to depression. But I can't prove that.

I'm always open to new drugs. I have to be because I've run through so many options. But these drugs I do not feel good about.

I am just having a very hard time not knowing what is going to happen aside from a discussion of should I be IP which is probably yes no matter what is done.

I just don't know what to expect and I am afraid of everything I know is a possible option for treatment. I know what my thoughts are at this point but I don't know what my pdoc will think and I can see a few different angles for her.

13.5 hours......

[WibblyWobbly]

I'm so sorry. I know you feel pressured because of your insurance situation. You were already thinking about going IP. If you're not comfortable with any of the med options you can always start ECT there. It seems like you've been leaning towards it lately. I'm sure together with your pdoc you will make the right decision.

[Edgar's Mom]

There is a lot of synchronicity with us right now Rainbow. I also see my pdoc tomorrow and I am scared too. I don't think there are many drugs I can try now and I also might need to go IP. I hope your appointment goes well and can't wait to hear about it...

[bipolarbearcub]

It's ok to be scared. I'm glad that you are open to try new meds and other options for healing.
I hope things go/went well at the doctor. Try not to predict what your pdoc will say or think!