[sui generis]

So I've been in a depressive episode for maybe 2 months now and usually tuenonly changes in my sleep are that I sleep longer and it's really hard to get out of bed.

A week ago that changed. Now I find it more difficult to get to sleep and once I do I end up waking up between 3 and 5 and it takes me ages to get back to sleep. And when I wake up in the morning i cant sleep in even when I probably should. But what wakes me up in the early hours is I suddenly have this energetic feeling in my muscles and I can't stop moving around. It drives me absolutely crazy. I almost got a pair of scissors to cut my back open because I thought that maybe the "energy" needed to escape. I get this feeling in the day too but I just go for a long walk to get rid of it.

Has anyone else experienced this? I can't put up with this any longer so I'm gonna text my case worker and see if she can organize a temporary med to stop this

[CopperStar]

I get really tense and restless muscle problems when I'm heading into a mixed episode. It combines depression with the ugly side of mania, so typically I will be exhausted to the point of feeling sick, but I won't be able to get comfortable or stay in the same position for more than a few minutes.

[sui generis]

Ugh that is what it's feeling like at the moment. My caseworker got back to me and gave me an appt with the pdoc tomorrow. Idk if I can last that long tbh. If I wake up again tonight and it's like how it was last night I think I'll completely lose it. I'm now afraid of falling asleep because not sleeping is worse than waking up with that horrid restlessness.