[lovelesssephiroth]

I am in a situation that if I don't take my meds I will be injected. There was a time I was mandated to a counsellor, not by choice, but by the government. The government has taken over my finances and my business. I had been on Zyprexa for many years, I was accommodated with a disability in university and work. Then 3 car accidents happened after a near perfect driving record. I lost my job, and mania continued for 4 years. I am now on loxopine. I like it because I don't gain weight or feel as sedated as Zyprexa but it has weird side effects. I feel too tired to run my business or work, like before. I had been in the hospital involuntarily for at least a year and half of and on for 3 years. I was robbed a lot and even on the streets. It felt like nothing. I was saying a lot of things about famous people and political figures online at the time too. It feels more like punishment. When manic I am vivacious, now I am shy, it is so weird. I am also antipsychiatry, but I feel I have no choice. I am seeing things a little differently, but I should not feel punished for being a political activist, a competitor in business, or believing and seeing the paranormal in this way. Now I will be stuck on these medications, fighting for my money, and trying to keep it away from men I date. I don't want to scare anyone off in the beginning. Does anyone have these problems to? All I care about is being in love and my doctor even said no dating, no running the business. I did try running the business and now am exhausted. Like when I used to be on Zyprexa. I don't like having a disability, I feel there is nothing wrong with me, an I don't like this label "normal" people get to use. If any of you might have similar, I hope all the best for you. I usually get, you are bipolar? Because I used to be so high functioning. Its just theres more to my illness, that includes political vests. I miss my research on the occult which I am staying away from now, my political activity, my energy, dating without fear of the bipolar or some aspect of my life that seems embarrassing. Thanks for your support, I am glad I found this forum. <3

[CopperStar]

Your doctor doesn't get to tell you whether or not to date. I think dating with BP can be pretty difficult in some ways, but it's completely up to you whether or not you think it's worth it.

[Victoria'smom]

Injection medicine has helped me greatly.

[lunaticfringe]

I hear where you are coming from. I am also sort of anti-psychiatry but I still take the meds because I would be completely out of control without them. I kind of see that there is something wrong with society and not me...I just don't fit in. I am also obsessed with love and sex and have done extensive research and participation in the occult in the past. It sucks. It's terrible to be told there's something wrong with you when all you want is to be yourself and act on your desires. It is a horrible daily struggle to not act on my desires.