[WibblyWobbly]

***Trigger Warning***

My mood and energy have been all over the place the last few weeks. This week I spent four days straight in bed sleeping and now I have really nervous energy. I'm up cleaning and doing laundry at 3 am.

I'm seeing my t twice a week and have a safety plan in place. I'm trying to use my coping skills but I was so agitated that I ended up cutting myself. I did it on my upper arm so it's hidden. I feel a lot better now that I've done it but I'm scared to tell my t on Saturday. I'm not actively suicidal but I would rather be dead. I know this is just a temporary mood and I want to fight it without going to the hospital. If I read this I would tell the OP to be honest.

But what would YOU REALLY do if you were in this situation? Fess up, or keep quiet and fight it?

[raspberrytorte]

I'd keep quiet and continue fighting it. I'm not saying that's what you should do though! Hugs.

[Woolly Bugger]

Confess! What good is a therapist if you don't tell him or her the truth?

[Cocosurviving]

I would tell my therapist too.

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[Unrigged64072835]

Tell your t. You're paying them to help you, but they can't if you're not honest.

[Victoria'smom]

I would tell T. Have every other time. If I was agitated, cutting and would rather be dead it wouldn't mean IP.

[WibblyWobbly]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

I would tell T. Have every other time. If I was agitated, cutting and would rather be dead it wouldn't mean IP.

That's what I'm worried about. I'm hoping we can work through it without having to go there. She's a new t to me so I'm not sure how she handles these things.

Thanks for all the responses. I'll let you all know how it turns out.

Confess. Mixed state?

My therapist trusts me. I have told her my SI and she trusted i wouldn't do it.

[BastetsMuse]

Originally Posted by WibblyWobbly

But what would YOU REALLY do if you were in this situation? Fess up, or keep quiet and fight it?

I'd take my husband with me to my next session to keep me honest and fess up. Otherwise, I know I'd hide what I'd done.... but just to let you know, it took over twenty years of therapy to reach this point!

disclose to your therapist - PLEASE

When I did it came with a sudden amount of relief. I admit the attention factor made me feel better too.

I'd like you to do something for all of us and YOURSELF. Please take the time to complete for yourself a Behavioural Chain Analysis. It was eye opening for me, cathartic, and as a result helped me define a plan.

[WibblyWobbly]

Originally Posted by rcat

disclose to your therapist - PLEASE

When I did it came with a sudden amount of relief. I admit the attention factor made me feel better too.

I'd like you to do something for all of us and YOURSELF. Please take the time to complete for yourself a Behavioural Chain Analysis. It was eye opening for me, cathartic, and as a result helped me define a plan.

I disclosed to my therapist today. She spent two hours with me and is sending me back to partial. I'm okay with that. It'll be good for me to have that structure. We also came up with a safety plan for the weekend and she's going to see me again on Monday.

Thank you for the Behavioral Chain Analysis suggestion. I looked up a worksheet online and I will work on it today. It looks helpful. I haven't thought about some of the things I need to look at to understand why I cut.

I am glad you said something. Better to be safe. Hope you feel better soon.