hospitals and why

Took the words outta my mouth!

Only once, for a psychotic, suicidal mixed state.

I'm home on a pass but am IP right now for depression. I'm not suicidal and am better than I was a few weeks back (I was then) but my pdoc wanted me IP. I'm not sure that it's making any difference but I went because he wanted me to and I am compliant. I go back Sunday night and am not looking forward to it.

Edgar's mom-Glad you got to come home on a pass. That doesn't happen here; the insurance would say if you are that well then you can be discharged. I'm glad you are a bit better. Not sure if you meant you were better when you went in or since you went in but I'm glad you are improving regardless. Is it better than you were afraid of?

Four times.

April of 2015 for delusional thinking.

September of 2015 for suicidal thoughts/feeling unusually happy.

September of 2015, again, but for paranoia.

September/October of 2015, involuntary, for supposedly suffering from suicidal ideation.

I'm not bipolar, but have unipolar depression.

- residential treatment, 9 months, for depression. During this I spent 1 weekend (fri-mon) 'really' inpatient after a suicide attempt.
- 5 weeks, 3,5 of which I was sectioned. After multiple suicide attempts (1 that landed me in the hospital, 3 during the half day I was laying in a hospital bed). I wasn't depressed because I was convinced I was going to die some (by my own hand) and was almost deliriously happy because of it. (No, I wasn't manic) The first 1,5 week I spent in a terrible facility. I spent a lot of time in solitary confinement (don't know what it's called in English - but basically you get an untearable dress and paper underpants, 4 cups of water, a mattress, two untearable blankets and a paper bedpan. And then you're left there.) because of staffing issues (= because I was suicidal - I wasn't violent towards anyone else. But as there wasn't enough staff to keep an eye on me, I was chucked in there). When I got to my 'regular' facility I could almost kiss my pdoc (even though he was the one who had gotten me sectioned) when he said he wasn't going to have me put in solitary confinement anymore.
- 9 weeks, after a suicide attempt that was interrupted by the cops. 'Voluntarily' - I was told I'd be sectioned if I didn't agree. During this time I quit eating and drinking and started ECT. I went home during the weekends.

I've had inpatient 'offered' to me a few other times, but it either wasn't forced or I convinced my pdoc it wasn't necessary/wasn't a good idea.

Furthermore I've been in residential two other times for intensive therapy - once two weeks, once one week - during which I got 3 hours of EMDR therapy a day. To beat the PTSD.
Tomorrow I'll be going to residential for another week during which again I'll be having 3 hours of EMDR therapy a day. Wish me luck!

Oh, and I just remember, there's something called a "prescription for a bed" in my country. Basically that's that you have an agreement with a ward that you're allowed to check yourself in for 1 night when you feel the need (and can convince the ward nurses that there's a need). I did this once. So I spent another 1 night inpatient.

Twice this year for severe depression/suicidal

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Twice IP, Three times IOP. I have a pdoc who will keep me out of the hospital whenever he can!

I have never been but there are about 6 times when I could/should have been. 1 Mixed, 1 psychotic, and at least 3 suicidal.

I am very stubborn and was raised to think I could do it on my own. And I have pulled through but it was very, very, very hard.

3 times for delusions.

I feel with what happened with the third one I have started to unlock the mystery of my mind to a degree so I believe I may just escape never to see a hospital again.

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I have been to the hospital twice, once in 2013 for psychosis, the other briefly for smoking marajuana and getting paranoid.