[CopperStar]

I had a little one of the moments today, as far as realizing that maybe my anxiety responses are actually normal and not the result of a mental illness.

I got some more outside perspectives on the way things are being handled at my job, and so far everyone agrees that it's a disaster area in there.

Basically other staff keep using my cash register code, money goes missing, and then I get in trouble for it. Today a manager used my I.D. code and then she and another employee primarily used the register, but all under my I.D. (meaning that if the balance comes up short, I will take the blame). At the end of the shift, the manager wouldn't even let me close down my own drawer, which is odd, so I didn't even get to see how much is was short, no idea if I will be in big trouble tomorrow or not.

This has been going on since I started and was put on the registers, and my anxiety has been through the roof, causing insomnia and other issues. This whole time I've felt like I'm constantly about to launch into a "mixed episode" and have been blaming most of it on my BP.

But lately I am hearing from several neurotypicals that they would also be super stressed out in the same situation.

So maybe this time it's not just me being nuts. Maybe my feelings are normal in this situation.

Any of you ever have moments where you thought it was your BP, but turns out maybe you were just having normal reactions?

[tamarama]

Originally Posted by CopperStar

I had a little one of the moments today, as far as realizing that maybe my anxiety responses are actually normal and not the result of a mental illness.

I got some more outside perspectives on the way things are being handled at my job, and so far everyone agrees that it's a disaster area in there.

Basically other staff keep using my cash register code, money goes missing, and then I get in trouble for it. Today a manager used my I.D. code and then she and another employee primarily used the register, but all under my I.D. (meaning that if the balance comes up short, I will take the blame). At the end of the shift, the manager wouldn't even let me close down my own drawer, which is odd, so I didn't even get to see how much is was short, no idea if I will be in big trouble tomorrow or not.

This has been going on since I started and was put on the registers, and my anxiety has been through the roof, causing insomnia and other issues. This whole time I've felt like I'm constantly about to launch into a "mixed episode" and have been blaming most of it on my BP.

But lately I am hearing from several neurotypicals that they would also be super stressed out in the same situation.

So maybe this time it's not just me being nuts. Maybe my feelings are normal in this situation.

Any of you ever have moments where you thought it was your BP, but turns out maybe you were just having normal reactions?

I had a neighbor who was breaking into my apartment and stealing stuff from me, mostly money. I was also paranoid at the time, so everyone wrote it off to my paranoia. Neighbor moved away and I didn't have money go missing from my purse or come up short on meds for the month. Not exactly the same but stuff does happen and it's not all a delusion. Real stuff causes anxiety! I understand why you are stressed out by your situation at work. I don't think it sounds like BP. It's like I've programmed myself and my family to automatically think it's the bipolar when it could be something else. You sound very rational about it which is always a good sign for me!.

[bbTofu]

"Just because you're paranoid doesn't mean they aren't after you.”
Kinda seems to fit here.

One of the reasons I do not share my condition with friends/colleagues etc.. is not to have them think and label everything I do. "Oh you're hypo.. oh you're down now.."
But, frankly, one of the challenges is that we'll learn not to do that all the time, too.

[BleakGeek]

They shouldn't be doing that to you. Is there anyone you could talk to there who has the authority to do something about it? You definitely are reacting the way a "normal" person would react.

[CopperStar]

I sent an email to corporate using the appropriate help line, and explained the situation and that it makes me very uncomfortable and why.

I imagine I am going to be fired soon, so I am going to apply for more jobs this week on my days off.

[BleakGeek]

Originally Posted by CopperStar

I sent an email to corporate using the appropriate help line, and explained the situation and that it makes me very uncomfortable and why.

I imagine I am going to be fired soon, so I am going to apply for more jobs this week on my days off.

Sounds like it's not a good place to work anyway. You don't need that stress!

[Nammu]

Who knows you might be promoted!