[DelusionsDaily]

So I had T today. We were talking about my soon to be crazy work schedule. This brought up my manic and depressive episodes. I told her that depression is very familiar to me. However the mania is less noticeable/detectable. So, she gave me what she sees and summed it up. I wouldn't even call my mania episodes. They are more like very brief blips on a radar. For not realizing WHAT they are, I certainly am very good at reeling myself in when they start. It's quite interesting. I'm curious if anyone else is like that? My mania shows in primarily two different ways: first I'm very irritable and impulsive or two I'm very goal oriented and impulsive. I think what saves me is I'm very quick to reel in the impulsivity which often saves me on all fronts or at least most fronts. However when depression come I live under the rock of denial. I just hope it'll go away...instead of facing it and dealing with it.

[WibblyWobbly]

Impulsivity is a huge problem for me. I recognize it when I'm doing it but not as a symptom. I'm still working on self-awareness. Right now I mostly just notice sleep patterns because they are not subjective. (I can't rationalize them.)

[alincdytyourmeds]

I didn't even think I had bipolar because I didn't recognize the Hypomania. But now that I am looking I can see where I might have had some in the past and like you it was because it was mostly irritability and some reckless impulses that I mostly control.