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Went to group tonight. Wanted to cry the whole time. Didn't cry at all instead. I told my therapist tonight that I needed 3 hours on Wed (my next appt), ha...she leads my group also. She giggled and said "we'll just make our hour efficient." Also, if anyone remembers the thread about me feeling embarrassed about a conversation I had with her, we did discuss it tonight in small detail and it is fine.
I want this depression to end so badly. I want this illness taken from me so badly. It has taken so much from me. I am tired of sleeping, tired of laying around, tired of crying. I want my life back and I want it fully. Tonight, to quote Ani Difranco, I need backup; I need company; I need to be inspired. I don't want to want to die anymore.
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***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
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I want to want to live too
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Dx: Bipolar II, GAD, past substance abuse, temporal lobe epilepsy. Rx: Lamotrigine 125mg, Sertraline 50mg, Clonazepam 0.5mg prn. |
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I want to not hate every day of my life.
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The darkest of nights is followed by the brightest of days. 😊 - anonymous The night belongs to you. 🌙- sleep token "What if I can't get up and stand tall, What if the diamond days are all gone, and Who will I be when the Empire falls? Wake up alone and I'll be forgotten." 😢 - sleep token |
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I want you who are suffering right now to feel peace
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I used to rule the world Seas would rise when I gave the word Now in the morning, I sleep alone Sweep the streets I used to own I used to roll the dice Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes Listen as the crowd would sing Now the old king is dead! Long live the king! One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand |
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