[scatterbrained04]

I've been feeling so unwell the last few days. Suddenly, I feel so unworthy of a relationship. I feel so inadequate in everything I do. A part of me is considering walking away from the relationship. He's great. I'm not. I know I'll just end up making him miserable in the end.

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Do you find yourself feeling unworthy of being loved, or just not capable of providing love? Either way, those are distorted thoughts. Do you have a therapist to talk to about this? You deserve love and if that person loves you back you can work through your feelings of inadequacy with help.

[scatterbrained04]

Originally Posted by Fharraige

Do you find yourself feeling unworthy of being loved, or just not capable of providing love? Either way, those are distorted thoughts. Do you have a therapist to talk to about this? You deserve love and if that person loves you back you can work through your feelings of inadequacy with help.

I feel unworthy of being loved but capable of giving love. Just seems like I wouldn't be worth the aggravation

My therapist retired a couple years ago, and I decided to quit therapy instead of finding a new one. I'm terrible at talking about how I feel, so I really wasn't getting anything out of it.

[Mountainbard]

I'm sorry you're having difficulties with your relationship. Relationships are hard enough when we aren't dealing with bipolar as well. But please remember you are anything but unworthy. You definitely do deserve love, and if your partner loves you back he must think you're pretty great. Try not to beat yourself up and please don't let your fears overrule your heart.

[scatterbrained04]

Originally Posted by Mountainbard

I'm sorry you're having difficulties with your relationship. Relationships are hard enough when we aren't dealing with bipolar as well. But please remember you are anything but unworthy. You definitely do deserve love, and if your partner loves you back he must think you're pretty great. Try not to beat yourself up and please don't let your fears overrule your heart.

Thank you for the support. I am so confused. I have consent conversations in my head to the point of driving me nuts. I feel bad because I didn't call him last night like I said I would, but I felt like maybe I'd say something I'd regret later. Not sure if I am really ok or not.

Just found out my pdoc appointment is next week. Not sure if I should mention any of this. Definitely don't want a med change.

I'm sorry that you are feeling that way.

Looking at myself, my biggest mistake was listening to the little voice that likes to bash me and make me feel bad. I'm my own saboteur. When I'm depressed, I'm like you, not feeling worthy to myself or anyone. This is also part of self bashing. By doing this, I eventually make what I'm feeling to come true. I also find that I project my thoughts onto other people, like knowing what they are thinking according to me, reading into their words and actions...the side glances, out of place smiles that appear as snarls- this I figure to paranoia and hallucinations. I've discovered that my best approach to all this and is to tell my brain that it's a liar and am not listening to it anymore, and realize that I'm so lucky to have a partner that loves me so much to endure my stupid crap, and when things get better, I'm going to make sure to show them how much I appreciate their loving patience.

It takes practice, but it is doable, I hope.

[avlady]

it is doable but you have to really tell yourself you're worth it to yourself. i have the same problem, i dont know why people put up with my you know what. i've hurt alot of people emotionally and then feel bad.