[HALLIEBETH87]

I see my pdoc is less than two weeks (finally!!) Im losing relationships because of my behavior and it really hurts. I feel so guilty but cant change it.

I have a few things I wish to happen at our visit. Can you tell me if my expectations are too high??

1)Help with sleep. I am *still* not sleeping well and I truly believe it is a contributing factor to my moods. Maybe a sleep aid? I have been working hard on sleep hygiene and its still not helping.

2)Possible increase of dose of my AP because I don't want this to cycle again and it really helped me for a month.

3)Help me better understand some things that have happened this time. This cycle is insane and really taking its toll both internally and in my life. I cant change what Ive done or whats happened and its killing me. I don't like losing people in my life. I feel abandoned (BPD thing, I know.) I had the gun moved where I don't know where it is. I threw out meds I had stashed away and once I can proceed without triggering me...I will throw out some self harming items I found stashed in my closet while I was cleaning today. With my recent situation I found it too tempting and cant touch it right now.

I just want to feel even keen. I have a lot to talk about with my T on Monday. Shes so sweet. We couldn't meet last week so she scheduled to call me on Wednesday night so we could check in (two days after police/ambulance came to me house after crisis chat conversation. *eye roll*) Shes great!

[BeyondtheRainbow]

I think all of those things are reasonable. I think that getting sleep is a big thing to help; I know that if I am not sleeping I am going to be cycling or am cycling. We even have a rule that 3 days without at least 3 hours of sleep and I call my pdoc and I let her know if 3 hours of sleep per day goes on 5 days (or sooner if desperate). One night of missed sleep can cause months of cycling for me.

Are you still on another AP? My pdoc made it sound like Rexulti would need to be used with another, low dose AP. I think that it wasn't approved to treat mania? Can't remember for sure but I think that's it.

And the scary suicidal thoughts definitely need to come up and asking why and how to stop them is totally normal.

I think you have a good plan. (I actually fell asleep writing this so if 4 other people have posted exactly the same thing that's why I'm repeating myself. The only cold med I can take is liquid vicodin and it either does nothing and I function fine or I wake up and realize I fell asleep sitting up. Oops).

[HALLIEBETH87]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

I think all of those things are reasonable. I think that getting sleep is a big thing to help; I know that if I am not sleeping I am going to be cycling or am cycling. We even have a rule that 3 days without at least 3 hours of sleep and I call my pdoc and I let her know if 3 hours of sleep per day goes on 5 days (or sooner if desperate). One night of missed sleep can cause months of cycling for me.

Are you still on another AP? My pdoc made it sound like Rexulti would need to be used with another, low dose AP. I think that it wasn't approved to treat mania? Can't remember for sure but I think that's it.

And the scary suicidal thoughts definitely need to come up and asking why and how to stop them is totally normal.

I think you have a good plan. (I actually fell asleep writing this so if 4 other people have posted exactly the same thing that's why I'm repeating myself. The only cold med I can take is liquid vicodin and it either does nothing and I function fine or I wake up and realize I fell asleep sitting up. Oops).

No I'm just on rexulti. I don't tolerate other APs. We shall see how it goes

[PumpkinPieHead]

Ever since starting meds, (about 2 months ago), getting to sleep hasd been difficult. I take a cap full of ZZZ quil every night now. It beats laying there, tossing and turning for hours.

Good luck at your appointments! Please do check in often, OK?

[HALLIEBETH87]

Originally Posted by PumpkinPieHead

Ever since starting meds, (about 2 months ago), getting to sleep hasd been difficult. I take a cap full of ZZZ quil every night now. It beats laying there, tossing and turning for hours.

Good luck at your appointments! Please do check in often, OK?

I'm sure it will all be fine. Thanks!!