[BeyondtheRainbow]

I called and left a message for my pdoc last night (so received by her secretary this morning) about what is happening this week. She's been off and is undoubtedly catching up and probably has to consult with the hospital drs. But I didn't hear anything and now I feel like I'm going to wait forever and nothing will happen. I know that's not what she is going to let happen but I really hoped that today I would know. I don't want to find out that I have 12 hours to get ready. I'm laying stuff out and trying to get things ready to go so that in theory that shouldn't be so bad but I just would like to know what is going on so I know how much I need to push to be ready or if this isn't happening until next week or what.

I know she'll get back to me when she knows something. I just hoped to have some of the anxiety taken away. I don't even know if this is an ER thing that I can do at any point (aside from not sure how I'd get admitted through ER since I'm not dangerously suicidal, just the same level I've been for months) or a direct admit. I know nothing. And I don't trust what I thought I knew a few weeks ago.