[scatterbrained04]

For those that work (or did work), what is the most difficult aspects of your job to handle because you're bipolar??

One of mine is seeing just how many people in nursing homes have bipolar. It's depressing. Like a daily suggestion that I'm going to one day end up there.

Also for me is dealing with employees that are upset or just want to be difficult. I got enough s*** going on in my own world. I get dumped on. Constantly.

[hopeless2015]

Leaving the house to go to my job, then staying there the whole days because everything and everyone makes me batshit crazy....

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[BeyondtheRainbow]

Supervising. I never was very good at getting my assistants to do what they should and then I would wind up with more work because of that which made me less efficient and then I got in trouble for not meeting goals. At one point I had assistants who were documenting they were doing things that they weren't and I couldn't get support from my own supervisor because at least my assistants were meeting their goals. (this place wasn't exactly ethical). I had to start refusing to sign progress notes that were not true and then I suddenly was fired, replaced by a new grad who would earn a fraction of what I did and who would be less likely to insist that the assistants comply with the plan of care. It was ugly. My favorite jobs were the ones I had no assistants. And it's nothing against assistants; I had a combination of having some that were just not good and my bipolar made it hard for me to express what I wanted from them in a way that made anyone care at all.

[BlackSheep79]

Mine is being overwhelmed by how many responsibilities I have. Others are relying on me to get all of this done, so the pressure is too much. I make lists so that helps a lot. So a lot of times it's hard for me to get to work because I know what to expect. Also, sometimes when I'm hypomanic I can't stand some people's voices, it irritates me and builds up. I've had to leave work because I felt like I was going to just scream at them, then I could lose my job. Working is the most stressful part of my life. I feel it exacerbates my MI at times.

[alincdytyourmeds]

Being behind schedule and feeling rushed. This happens mostly when my partner doesn't do their share. So dealing with bs from coworker also sucks. Getting out of bed is hard that is why I give myself at least an hour to get the motivation to go.

[HALLIEBETH87]

Never getting things done on time bc I couldn't focus then getting in trouble, plus immature trouble making coworkers.

[raspberrytorte]

Always having to do the work of three people. Being rushed. Dealing with boss... she's so mean!

[BipolaRNurse]

Dealing with people in general, and especially those who were upset about something I had nothing to do with and couldn't fix. It was so difficult to stand there and take verbal abuse and then have to kiss @$$. I know it's part of everyday nursing, but it really sucks which is one of the reasons I no longer work in the field.

[jacky8807]

The insane external stimuli. From every direction and at all times.
They were use to me at my last job but when a new person came in and in mid conversation I'm stepping back and covering my ears......yeah they thought I was strange.

[Ocean Swimmer]

I'm self employed. When I'm too bipolar I don't take on any projects. Right now I have workers that I need to supervise.
Sometimes I don't want to talk to anyone. Or plan and think ahead. I have some really big jobs looming over my head.
But I'm recovering from one of my worst years. I want to be smarter. More careful. Less driven. Sometimes too much work triggers my mania. Then no one can tell I'm sick they just all have to do lots of work. Till I go Psycotic. Or ip.
It's really viscous.

[wildflowerchild25]

Being around people. The only thing I want when depressed is solitude. And when I'm manic the stimuli is too much. I wish I could do subbing instead. That way I could choose to not work on the days I'm not up to it and face no repercussions.

[ColeM1100]

The commute is so terrible, having to depend on my spouse to pick me up at night because I can't get home, the cold climate that hampers my travel, having to work with the public, the pressure, the dull parts, the fact that I miss so much work I have no coworkers or bosses that like me or want to be around me, and the anxiety of trying to hold it together when I'm not sure how long I'll be able to keep my job; or even if I want to keep my job

[gina_re]

Being able to get through the whole day without wanting to take a nap or just stop because my brain said so.

[furiousfever]

I'm a hairstylist. It's tough when I'm depressed because I just cannot entertain people. I cannot muster enough creativity. I cannot handle the insensitive things people say about mental illness in normal conversation. I also can't ever just call out. If I do, then the next day is longer and more overwhelming.
When manic, it's great! I'm a creative genius and hilarious and fun and motivated and will work 12 hours a day and love it...
Until I start shaking or saying horrible inappropriate things and wanting to bolt.
Meh.

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[Takeshi]

Knowing what I'm like and finding a new job, this is going to be tough...meh.

[Keegan2015]

Honestly I feel like I am underutilized and have too much downtime for the amount of money that I get paid to do it (nothing fancy, but enough for me to live on). I'm usually bored and not really doing anything at my desk and I worry that people pick up on it and think I'm lazy when really there's just not much for me to do -- or at least it hasn't been made clear to me how I should best be spending my time... At least I get my own cubicle

[NoIdeaWhatToDo]

The hardest parts of my job, related to my BP:

1) Recognizing the (undiagnosed) BP in my boss and knowing when she's up that I going to get a ton of weird assignments outside of our agency mission, and that I just have to do them and shut up, because she's also narcissistic and would 'blacklist' me if I spoke up. As long as I play nice, she's my biggest champion, though. It's hard to feel so supported by someone who could really use a ton of the self-awareness I've gained through years of therapy.

2) When I'm on a high part of the cycle, I get pressured speech, and I'm really self conscious about it after I speak. My jokes fall flat because my mind has raced in seriously tangential directions, then I feel like I have to explain how I got to where I ended up. It's never funny to others if you have to explain, but I *have* to do it anyway. I can also be highly distractable, and sometimes I end up mentioning whatever's distracting me at the moment (calling attention to it does NOT make it better!).

3) When I'm in a low part of my cycle, I frequently indulge self-talk about how replaceable I am. I am unmotivated to do my work, and just skate by with the bare minimum. I have considered quitting in my lows, because I can't stand the work, or my agency would fare better economically if they weren't supporting my wages, or as a part of indulging my desires to just separate myself from everyone and everything in my life. It's a real struggle to feel like that and maintain a 'normal' appearance at work.

[GalaxVaMom]

My cooing skills have much to be desired.Sometimes I'm super Happy and motivated..suddenly something small triggers anger uncomfortable. Ie: I was on the phone and the rest of the center were dancing to music bc moral was dowm. I wanted to meet my sales goals and I couldn't hear nor consentrate. My thoughts were swarming in my head. Finally I walked to my boss and said can I move somewhere else? If not U
I'm quitting I can't hear over the music. I was obviously angry and then I cried and cried. I felt like I was ruining everyones elses fun.
They did apologize for the loud environment.
But somehow I actually worked through it? Only the younger workers were upset. I moved to a different area and it's quieter.
I wasted time and energy obcessing

[Unrigged64072835]

The hardest part was trying to keep going when I was depressed, especially when I had to talk to people and "be professional."

[gonetomaui]

My issue is with my co-workers not my customers. Sometimes I feel I have to deal with jealousy, just like I had to with my sister. I know my bp has caused some issues with co-workers(mood disorder', paranoia, reacting), but there is also an element of jealousy with them.

I'm newly diagnosed and medicated and wondering if this will change things?

Stress....

[festidump]

I´m a performer so sometimes I´m up up and away, manic and loving it and taking all sorts of risks on stage that are not always the best thing for the show and upsetting people with my "I´m so much better than you" attitude in a world full of divas, Never a good outcome. When I´m down in the dumps, trying to muster the energy to perform, smile, sing, make small talk after the show.... nearly cripples me.

I love to perform. I just wish I could love the life I´m living as somewhere deep in side I know that professionally I´m living my dream so the hardest part of the job? Knowing it´s perfect and being unable to enjoy it.