[onyx69000]

was fine ealier today.. now just want to cry no reason. i just feel like someone died. that sad. it to shall pass-iguess. hubby just started nights that could have something to do with it. kids are home from school for the summer a little overwhelmed. not much just a little. neighbor kid was over erlier and he's a mess. no rules for him to follow. any way back to the sad side of me. i am not usually like this i prefer the highs-manic episodes. well anyone out there feel like talking pm me i could use the company. feel like i should isolate myself know that would only lead to further depression.-onyx

[Direction]

I went from a normal to high mood...GRRRR!!!

The night shift could have somthing to do with it...I like the highs like today...

I'm on the opposite side...but if you want to talk let me know...

[onyx69000]

woke up alittle better thanks i just might. hope you got some sleep last night. take it easy-onyx

[Hopes]

I know that feeling all to well! But it will get better sometimes it takes longer than you think it will though (I am sure you already know that though). Take care of you for a while, I know it is hard cause of the kids but try to sneak it in just for yourself. I hope I helped at least somewhat and please do pm me anytime you would like!

Hopes

<font color="blue"> </font> Sorry your feeling down, lonely. But we are here, you need to get back in the pool!! Ha Ha.. When I'm in the crapper, and mood swings are blowing me all over. I have to do something off the wall to break the cycle. If I don't the vail of deperssion consumes me, and I won't be seen for weeks.
Sad to think with all medical technology they can't figure this out. I have I found out that yes I go to my p-doc, but I can come here, and all of you are seeing the world thru my eye's. Don't have to talk for an hour to get to the point..
Question, what's the deal with Seroquel? They have me on 300mgs at night and it's wiping me out. I went to they're web page, took the standrd test to see if you should use the drug and it said NO.. So I don't know.. Maybe someone out here can explain it to me..

THIS NIGHT

By Tucker

As I try to drift to a place,

I’ve not been in such along time.

The plague that has consumes my

body and soul, is winning again.

Slowly start’s it’s advance,

I know in a short time, I will be

in another fight, for my night.

As I try to slide from the bed.

The sheet tears at me,

trying to pull me back down.

I glance at my wife, wishing.

Praying I could lie by her side.

All I want is to hold her.

Let her know I’m a man again.

Years of disappointments, I blame myself.

Lifting my body from our lair,

pain consumes me once again,

Where do I turn?

My daughter, thoughts go rushing

back to her, curled in my lap on the

eve of night. No more.

The intense sounds of my sons

football games, in the summer of his

youth. Stands swaying, the crack

of helmets and bodies flying,

drove piercing pain thru my

body.

But I was there.

Pain, depression torments my soul,

leading me deeper down, to a place

I’ve been to so many times before.

Tonight, I lost.

Tomorrow I will fight again,

I have to win,

For them…

[Direction]

How have things been going over the last week or so...