New here and Feeling off

Hello people,

I'm new here so first hi everybody...

I've been feeling off for a while now. I started asking questions about it on another board (along with other general health questions) but now i appeared to be banned there. It's making me feel pritty terrible since i've got no clue what i did. I think they had it in for me... Anyway i guessed i'd better see if i could get an awser else were.

I've been having two kinds of problems one that i think has to do with my eyes (i have to find another board for that one because it's anoying me (lightflashes and stuff)) and the second has to do with mental health i guess.

I don't know why but i've been feeling off latly. I don't feel like the things i used to do and it got worse over the last year or so. I used to play guitar but i don't feel like it anymore and things like that...

I even lost intrest to speak to my friends..; I'd use to see them once a week now it's like once a month if i'm lucky.
I don't feel like talking to them anymore egther on a chat program such as msn...

Latly i've been having a heard time focusing on items wich isn't good since i have exams now. But not just the learning conversations too. I can stop talking in the middle of a conversation and just like blank out... or start about something different...

Latly i've really got the feeling not to do anything in a day just stare in front of stuff like that

Anyway i was just wondering what it could be...
I don't think it's really serious i just noticed because a while ago some friends pointed it out together with things like telling me that i laugh at the wrong times somethimes. They were pritty sick of me...
I guess i just want to vent to somebody...

Hi, Aces and welcome!

I would recommend taking one (or more) of the quizzes here and that would give you some idea of what you might be experiencing.

Next, if you haven't already, I would make an appointment with your Dr. or might check into finding a therapist. You mentioned you're in school. Most schools have counselors on staff for no charge.

Thanks for your very swift awser

I did take a couple tests allready more then just on this site.
I'll run them over:

EQ : all time low...
AQ : suprisingly high

On this site i took the two following tests:
the test for bipolar witch i stoped when i filled it in half way because as i filled things in i felt more and more convinced that it really whouldn't be this.

The ADD test said i had mild ADD but i dunno about that.

The depression test said i maight be mildly depressed but i don't think so

The last one i took is the schizophrenia test i scored pritty high there above 15 if i rember correct but i think that has to do with the fact i'm kind of paranoid because i used to get bullied and it left it's scares...

I don't want an doctor appointment. I know that must sound very odd but i don't trust them or understand them. Last year as me and some friends had a fight after witch they told me these things i went to a school social worker and talked about things... It left me more confused then anything and afterwards he kept following me around asking me if i felt better now about the fight and stuff...
Plus it whould mean i have to bother my family.. You know i can't mum cares a great deal about me because she always says i'm different, special and last time i told her i saw that school councler she was really upset and started making this big deal out of it... Made me feel even wurse... plus they all have there own problems around here you know... My mum has a bad back, my sister has a wierd need to always be the center of attention and has a bad knee...

I have to say this seems a really nice place

Hi! i'm sorry that you're feeling badly now. i agree that it would be a good idea if you had someone to talk to. i bet your mum would understand. tell her privately that you feel that you need to talk to someone. i have bipolarII and am on meds. seeing a doctor or a therapist would help you sort out your issues. good luck, love, pat

I am no doctor but you sound depressed. Depression can affect you in so many different ways than you could have ever thought possible, believe me. The symptoms you've described strike me as being depressed. You don't have to be down in the dumps all the time to have depression, either. Depression can even cause physical symptoms, as well as emotional.

I know you don't like doctors much, but just go to see what they'd say. Then you could maybe come back here and tell us the results. It couldn't hurt. And you could also do a google search about the results and read the info for yourself. Then you could make the final decision to see if you had the doctor's diagnosis or not.

Hang in there.

thanks for the replys. No my mum whouldn't understand. She whould make this whole big deal of it like she always does but it's not really...

And as for doctors okay i'm not feeling super right now but i don't think any doctor could change that. My aunt got sick a while ago and she has been in an out of doctors offices since then. She hasn't improved a bit...

As for me beeing depressed sure it's possible... But it somehow seems unlikly to me. I'm not a good person with emotions mayby that's why.

Mayby it's just the stress from the exams or something...

Mayby it's a bit because people generaly dislike me and that maight got me a bit down... People plan things behind my back and stuff and i always get stuck with the lousiest people for project works and all. Last years work experience was an all time low. I guess that got to me.

i'm sorry i troubled you i relise you can't help me if you don't know what wrong...

Hi there, and welcome

We are a nice place. We're here to listen, share and support.

KD

yes i noticed this
lots better then other boards i've found!
The chat feature is also quite nice!

It's snowing here now... Snow is awsome and always makes me feel a bit better
Allthough i have to drive through it in less then two hours...

Anyway today i'm in a really devided mood. On the one side i'm feeling i should tell somebody everything that's going on. because what i said earlier is just a part of it really.
On the other side i don't trust a living soul and everything in me is telling me to don't talk about it, shut up.

I'm also having a terrible time concentrating on my exams and the learning...

Plus i feel bad about telling all this here because I shouldn't bother people with all of it really... I'm just trying to figure out something so i can get it all out and feel allright about it...

Yes, not all boards are support boards. Even support boards have to have guidelines... if you aren't sure about a certain post you want to make, you can PM it to a moderator first (in green in the online window) and get their opinion... post in the forum you think it best fits and it's more likely to be accepted, too.

Welcome to PC, Aces. I hope you like us. I'm sorry you need us

Hi UpTheAces,

The problem with your eyes caught my attention.

Light flashing and other visual abnormalities can be the prelude to a retinal detachment. When this is caught early it can be fixed with a simple not invasive procedure.

Please see your eye doctor . And best of luck to you.

Twinks

thanks for the advice
sure boards need rules else things whould turn into a mess!
But some boards have rather unfair rules to! I know a board (not a support board) where there is a rule that you need to write messages without spellings errors! I find this absurt as people who aren't good in languages or not as good as others have a valid opion to!
And some boards ban without a warning and that's a little harsh in my eyes to. I mean sure if a person is doing really upsetting things then i'd find it okay but i've even known a person get banned because he missed a line in the rules and posted a website that wasn't allowed!

Anyway i've been around on the inet and i try to follow the rules but somethimes because english is not my frist language i misintrepreat things...

Anyway do you think i've posted this thread wrongly?
i'll rember your advice

that doesn't sound very good Twinks mayby i should go to the doctor with it. I'll have to wait untill the end of my exams anyway and i actuelly do need to go because my vision has gotten wurse (i have glasses to see far like the blackboard)

thanks for your replay's!
gotto get back to trying to learn soon, breaks almost over.

IMO your posting is fine! Yes, unfairness is an issue of mine, too... but I'm learning to handle it

I agree with Twinks on the eyes... If you have been studying more intensely due to exams, that could have a negative effect (lol no, you can't tell professors, I'm unable to study, it hurts my eyes (brain, etc) lol) If you get any severe pain in an eye, call an opthalmologist immediately... and let them decide.

Good wishes on studying! Hope all that you study comes back to you at test time. TC

welcome to the site upaces,
Just want you to know you are in the right place, This site has been great to us. I hope to see you in chat room sometime,
red_rose

To all who were on the chat last night:
(sorry i can't seem to pm more then one person at a time )

I'm sorry, i was pritty stressed out. Nevermind anything i've said.
Afterwards i ran around in my room for a while and i think i'm just making a to big a deal out of everything...
Then i went to sleep...
Witch was quite unusual... I heart this sound witch kind of sounded like somebody steeling my sisters bike... like the weel dragging on the ground and those noise making things she has on them... And as i was listening it stoped when it was under my window... I killed the light and for a second was really scared it was like a burgalar or something and then i heard footsteps downstairs...
Turns out that was somebody in the famaly using the toilet
the noise must have been the wind... Phew pritty scary for a moment...

This morning when i got up mum knew i had been up late and started asking me questions... I got so increadibly stressed out because it's not her buisness really...
Then she went up my room freaked me out...

anyway i think it all gotten a bit out of hand... I don't think i'll be joining the chat tonight or the first couple of days as i feel prity out of place and sorry for my complaining last night...
Have a nice time and hopefully it's okay for me to post this here since i couldn't find info on sending pm to more then one person

greetz

Welcome uptheaces make yourself at home here...looking forward to a chat or two with you...

Thanks mystry...
I don't think i will be appearing in the chat the next couple days tough. Exam stress high, time lack big...

just wanted to say hi and welcome

Thank you very much
I like to see so many nice people together really this board has been a really nice surprise best i've stumbled upon!

Well i just wanted to say some things and i didn't feel like sticking them in a new thread.

I'm still a bit down... I don't seem to be able to enjoy things anymore. Not even things i used to enjoy. I'm not really sad eigther... it's a kind of flat feeling...

The again yesterday i felt a bit better... Not really happy but well it's kinde odd i felt like the boss of something... Like i was in charge of something important and it kind of felt good. I've been having this feeling that there is something i have to do. Something big. I'm not talking about for school or work or anything like that. No i mean something else... I can't put my finger on what but i kind of feel like i'm waiting for a mission or something.

Anyway i just wanted to say that or type that out... It's not like somebody has to awser to this. I can't ask that of you but i hope you understand i just had to type it out.

I understand ..sometimes its just nice to be heard