[~Christina]

Yes, ! I do.

I recently saw a Facebook " memory " that really made realize just how far I have come in the last 5 years . I feel content.. On so many levels.

I can self ground quicker than ever.
I stopped a huge amount of self loathing.
I haven't self harmed in over 3.5 years
My coping skills are coming out without me having to " think to use them"
When someone tells me I'm pretty.. I believe them.
I feel good in my own skin, finally.
I decided to do a 30 day vegetarian life style . 2 weeks in and I feel much better.
I am kinder to myself.
If I need to take time for myself.... I do it.
I have found some help with my chronic fibro pain.

I could go on ... but the end result is I have worked really hard to find this place... I know Bipolar will slap me hard one day.. But I am not going to waste time wondering "when" I have overcome so many things and put to rest some much that I can not change. I no longer feel tortured over things in my past.

Many of you "ole timers" have seen my struggles and cheered me on when need be and celebrate with me when I reached every goal I have reached for. Huge thanks to everyone.

For those struggling with Bipolar and the hell it brings... Please know and somehow remember that it can and will get better if you work at it,

Bipolar cycles, it always cycles, only consistant thing it offers us.

I hope everyone can find a serving or 2 of contentment. There is always a few things to be thankful for. Reach out and grab it.

[Mountainbard]

This is magnificent! I am so happy for you, and you should be so proud of yourself. "It can and will get better if you work at it." That is a truth we all need to remember and hold onto, even in our darkest hour. Kudos to you. You've put such a big smile on my face!

[Polibeth]

Thanks for this!

I can really relate - 5 years ago I was a mess. Now I am working full-time, off of SSDI, and bipolar isn't really the focus of my existence anymore. I have good days and bad days and recognize them as such - it's not always bipolar - sometimes we just have bad days. I no longer wait for the other shoe to drop either. I am looking forward to see how much further I come in the next 5 years.

Great post!!

[Victoria'smom]

I'm so happy you're doing well.

[hopeless2015]

Great post, thanks for sharing!!

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[jacky8807]

I loved hearing this
I do believe with all my soul we can get better (for at least long stretches)
Its seems to me from what I have seen on here you have worked so hard and I think that is so awesome. Your advice is always spot on and I love reading in on the forums
Congrats....I'm stabilizing myself right now and although I have much work to do I'm beginning to have hope in life

[jacky8807]

I am also starting to realize you also have to deal with all the other aspects that are hurting you

Have past trauma? (I don't) have to work through it
Addictive tendencies and substance abuse, anxiety, low self worth, anger, negative thinking, how we react to the world, hobbies, diet vitamins minerals

It's true thy are all huge

[jacky8807]

Also haha one last question
What helps your pain
I have a bit of fibro plus bulging disks bone spurs and a nerve issue all in my neck. I'm going to get a shot to nerve block I hope it works

[~Christina]

Yes .. I had to wade through all kinds of hell to find this peace. All sorts of abuse CSA/Rape(s) physical and mental just to name a few.

One day I was seeing my T and I was wrestling a few too many things .. he said .. Well.... how many cans do you want to keep kicking down the road ? A imagine popped into my head of me frantically run back and forth trying to keep all the cans going about the same way.. It was the "Ah Ha" moment.. I realized I had to decide what was I really trying to find out about X issue.. Was an eye opener of epic-ness

I just looked at each "thing" and thought ...okay is this worth my time? Lots of things I had no control over, None.. so why bang my head into the wall .. Ok CSA happen , Yep it was horrible, but I cant change it. I went through rapes .. again it happened , I cant change it .. So I just looked at whatever it was, examined it and basically tucked it away in the back of mind.

So .. basic steps .. See a problem or issue .. Can I fix it? does it need fixed? Am I kicking a dead horse and trying to also feed it ? So yeah I did lots of processing and putting it away in the back of mind, I will say I packed all them up mentally is beautiful box and tucked them away.

I am getting IV Lidocaine infusions for my Fibro . I was a huge skeptic .. But it drops my pain a lot ! Very worth it, Right now I go weekly I hope to be able to stretch them out to Biweekly. I hope it continues to work this well , No need for me to worry about it now... I am tired of borrowing problems.. Mindfulness at its best, take things as they come .. and Most of all........ breathe~

Hope that helps

[jacky8807]

Wow that kicking a dead horse but feeding it.....'story of my life'

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Yes, ! I do.

I recently saw a Facebook " memory " that really made realize just how far I have come in the last 5 years . I feel content.. On so many levels.

I can self ground quicker than ever.
I stopped a huge amount of self loathing.
I haven't self harmed in over 3.5 years
My coping skills are coming out without me having to " think to use them"
When someone tells me I'm pretty.. I believe them.
I feel good in my own skin, finally.
I decided to do a 30 day vegetarian life style . 2 weeks in and I feel much better.
I am kinder to myself.
If I need to take time for myself.... I do it.
I have found some help with my chronic fibro pain.

I could go on ... but the end result is I have worked really hard to find this place... I know Bipolar will slap me hard one day.. But I am not going to waste time wondering "when" I have overcome so many things and put to rest some much that I can not change. I no longer feel tortured over things in my past.

Many of you "ole timers" have seen my struggles and cheered me on when need be and celebrate with me when I reached every goal I have reached for. Huge thanks to everyone.

For those struggling with Bipolar and the hell it brings... Please know and somehow remember that it can and will get better if you work at it,

Bipolar cycles, it always cycles, only consistant thing it offers us.

I hope everyone can find a serving or 2 of contentment. There is always a few things to be thankful for. Reach out and grab it.

How nice. I am glad you were able to see a change for the better. That is great.

[Moogieotter]

Hooray ~Christina! You're an inspiration!

[wildflowerchild25]

I'm so happy for you Christina! You've always been a big help and support for me so I'm so glad you're doing so well. You deserve it!

This is MOST EXCELLENT!!!!!!! As a bit of an old timer here, I have to say that YOU have been an enormous help to SO many many many people here over the years. (You'd be too modest to toot your own horn, so lemme toot about it, ok? )

Much !!

(I'd say more, but right now really have got to get ready for work, but needed to get at least THAT much out there right away! )l

Really happy for you!!! You are an inspiration!! I hope to one day be where you are. Right on!!!

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Yes .. I had to wade through all kinds of hell to find this peace. All sorts of abuse CSA/Rape(s) physical and mental just to name a few.

One day I was seeing my T and I was wrestling a few too many things .. he said .. Well.... how many cans do you want to keep kicking down the road ? A imagine popped into my head of me frantically run back and forth trying to keep all the cans going about the same way.. It was the "Ah Ha" moment.. I realized I had to decide what was I really trying to find out about X issue.. Was an eye opener of epic-ness

I just looked at each "thing" and thought ...okay is this worth my time? Lots of things I had no control over, None.. so why bang my head into the wall .. Ok CSA happen , Yep it was horrible, but I cant change it. I went through rapes .. again it happened , I cant change it .. So I just looked at whatever it was, examined it and basically tucked it away in the back of mind.

So .. basic steps .. See a problem or issue .. Can I fix it? does it need fixed? Am I kicking a dead horse and trying to also feed it ? So yeah I did lots of processing and putting it away in the back of mind, I will say I packed all them up mentally is beautiful box and tucked them away.

I am getting IV Lidocaine infusions for my Fibro . I was a huge skeptic .. But it drops my pain a lot ! Very worth it, Right now I go weekly I hope to be able to stretch them out to Biweekly. I hope it continues to work this well , No need for me to worry about it now... I am tired of borrowing problems.. Mindfulness at its best, take things as they come .. and Most of all........ breathe~

Hope that helps

I worry waaaaaayyy too much about some things I can't change. So difficult not to worry about them though...

[moremi]

Great news girl do glad to hear this! Hugs

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I'm happy for you! *hugs*

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